I'm Not A Muslim, But...

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After the Paris attack that occurred recently, Western medias have make it such a huge headline in the newsfeed, causing so much stereotypes to the Muslims entirely without knowing the fact that the so called ISIS are not even Muslims. Even if they are, they are not true Muslims. Seriously, which religion taught a human to do such cruel act to the innocents?

I was browsing on Youtube videos recently, and I stumbled upon this video. "I'm Not A Muslim, But...". It's a video containing little 'speech' and thoughts by some random people saying so much beautiful things about Muslim. Watching it made me feel a little (actually so much) relieve that not all are badly influenced by the media spinning on the terror attack. We still have lots and lots of wonderful people that believe that true Muslims would not do such indecent and horrible act, and that Islam means peace =)

Bahagia

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Petang ini terasa untung dan bahagia. 

Terima kasih buat rakan,

Yang sanggup bersusah bawa kudapan ke kelas sebagai hadiah, 

Juga buat rakan, 

Yang sanggup datang ke kediaman semata menghantar makanan untuk dijamah. 

Ketahuilah bahawa setiap usaha kalian itu adalah sedekah.

Insya Allah. 

Moga Allah sentiasa rahmati!

MindRant 20

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Kitchen: DONE!

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"Alhamdulillah, tamat sudah event terakhir, bermakna tamatlah sudah segala amali in the kitchen. No more shouts of "MAIN COURSE 10! DESSERT 6!" And "KITCHEN CLOSE!". No more WAR in the kitchen, especially the main course dept. No more argument of which dish to which table when it comes to serving time. No more. Or at least, no more with them, beloved coursemates 😥. Thank you to all that have been with us throughout the 4 years time (almost), hehe. The lecturers, the staffs, Kak Zani, Abg Hadi, Kak Dila, Kak Ira, Kak Ainol, Pn Mala, Chef Reza and others. No worry, we'll meet again insya Allah! Towards a wonderful final year, yeay!"

I posted this in my social media and as I was writing this, a feeling of sadness and happiness are all mixed. I guess the happy part of of it was the fact that we do not need to attend anymore super exhausting kitchen classes and go all crazy to manage events, and the sad part is when we realised, that this is the last day for us to have that feeling of accomplishment after an event is finished. We gonna miss all the craziness and stress and team work, and of course, the best part ---- finishing up the leftover!

Alhamdulillah it is finally over. Alhamdulillah for all the great memories. Just can't believe that we've managed to go through all of these. looking forward for the last semester! 

Angan-angan Dunia

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Bila difikirkan masa hadpan, rasa seriau je. Kadang aku bercita tinggi, kadang aku mahu biasa-biasa sahaja.

Adakala aku rancang penuh teliti masa depan aku, tentang kerjaya, tentang bisnes, dan segalanya tentang masa hadapan. Ada waktu, aku cuma mahu menjadi suri rumah, menjaga keluarga dan juga anak-anak.

Adakala aku impikan perkahwinan yang gah, mewah, di dewan besar yang indah, bersama dayang-dayang, memakai dress yang mewah. Tetapi adakala angan-angan terhenti dan hanya ingin perkahwinan yang biasa, mudah dan ringkas. Berjubah sahaja, tanpa pelamin, tanpa si dayang.

Adakala rasa semangat nak teruskan belajar hingga phd, mahu suara mudah didengari, lantas dakwah mudah disampai. Tapi adakala rasa payah, dan aku rasa mahu berhenti cukup setakat ini.

Haihlaaa dunia.

Mengapa berat sekali aku memikirkanmu?

Appreciation

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Do you have your own diary? To keep things in memory? No matter sad or happy?

13 August, 2015
I took the chance to do solat jemaah just now with Huda. Nobody is at home. Only 2 of us. Alhamdulillah. I don't know why, it feels so good. Habis solat, dan doa, kami remain duduk dan aku tanya pada dia how was school, studies and other stuffs. Aku baru tahu dia salah seorang ketua kumpulan dalam kumpulan kelas dia. Aku baru tahu subjek favourite dia Maths. Aku baru tahu kek favourite dia kek yang buah-buahan. Bersungguh dia cerita tadi. Aku banyak ketinggalan rupanya. 

"Kak Nini garang tak?"
"Garang. Sikit."
"Sikit tu sebab apa?"
"Bila Huda buat salah"
"So kalau tak nak Kak Nini marah?"
"Huda jangan buat salah"

I was reading my previous writings in my diary and stumbled on this. It makes me realised, that I have focused too much on myself all this while. Even after the post above. In fact, all of us are much the same. Being selfish without us realising it. Don't you think?

Let's change! Let us be more concerning, caring, in a good way. In a way that can make others feel appreciated and happy. After all, what's the meaning of life without the presence of the people in our life? And what is the meaning of their presence if they are not appreciated?

Badiuzzaman Said Nursi

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Kebiasaannya bila aku dah tak dapat tumpukan perhatian dalam kelas, buku catatan akan aku buka dan mula menulis. 

Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck

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Kisah cinta dua darjat.

Dimeterai dengan sumpah yang berat,

Lalu dilanggar sumpahnya itu,

Demi menjaga hati yang tua.

Tersiksalah jiwa batin sang pemuda.

Sedang si gadis menyangka,

Bahawa kehidupannya akan aman.

Dengan kemewahan dan juga kekayaan.

Walau hati penuh kecewa,

Sang pemuda bangkit penuh semangat,

Dengan sokongan penuh sahabat,

Akhirnya berjaya menjadi penulis karya,

Masyhur di Surabaya dan sekitarnya.

Hari demi hari,

Musnah harapan si gadis,

Lantaran kemewahan yang tak menjanjikan kebahagiaan,
Isteri yang tidak dimuliakan,

Juga rindu yang kian menyesakkan dada. 

Tibalah satu hari,
Ditakdirkan keduanya bertemu,
Bantuan dihulur,
Dendam disimpan.
Atas dasar iman dan persahabatan.

Satu hari dilepaskanlah si gadis,
Oleh suaminya yang pergi menghukum diri,
Dikembalikan kepada sang pemuda,
Tetapi ditolak sementah-mentahnya,
Kerana ego dan prinsip yang teguh.

Tatkala semakin hancur hati keduanya,
Tersedarlah sang pemuda akan silapnya,
Melayani ego hingga hilang budiman,
Hingga sanggup melepaskan cinta dari pangkuan.

Tetapi benarlah cinta penuh kuasa,
Memberikan semangat dan kekuatan.

Walau tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck,
Walau sudah lemas di tengah lautan,
Tetap kuat si gadis menanti,
Hingga berada sang pemuda di sisi.

Lalu tenanglah dia pergi,
Bahagia menghadap Ilahi,
Kerana mengetahui masih ada cinta di hati.


"Cinta bukan mengajarkan kita untuk menjadi lemah, tapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan melemahkan semangat, tapi membangkitkan semangat."

Cinta. Ini sebuah perasaan yang tidak seharusnya dinafi. Walau begitu kita kagum dengan kuasanya, sebaiknya disandarkan terus kepada Ilahi, supaya akhirnya dapat diurus dengan baik dan tidak memakan diri. 

Menanti buku novelnya pula daripada Kimah. 
Katanya pengakhiran di layar dan novel berbeza keduanya. 

Hati Yang Memberontak

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Hati yang memberontak.
Bukan seperti air nyaman yang mengalir di kedinginan malam,
Bukan juga seperti angin salju yang menghembus tulus,
Merupakan hati yang perit tersepit di dalamnya,
Hati yang terkongkong dalam kepompong sengsara.
Teriakan sayu kalbu,

Meruntuh keutuhan konkrit emosi,
Umpama jarum mengerat batu,
Hanya kerana hati yang memberontak, 
Hidup dilalui dengan kesongsangan.


Hati yang memberonsang,
Mengeruhkan air muka ketenangan,
Menggelodar dari penjara kemurungan,
Menggelandang keperitan dengan penuh kepedihan,
Semua kerana hati yang memberontak.


Hanya satu sahaja penawarnya,
Penawar ajaib lagi berkuasa,
Munajat kepada Yang Maha Kuasa,
Jika berkata-Nya "Jadi,Maka Jadilah",
Maka tersingkir segala kepedihan,
Lantas terhapus segala keperitan.


Nescaya pada-Nya sahaja, 
Semua pasti terlaksana,
Tanpa ragu,ayuh kita beriman kepada-nya,
Kerana Dia adalah ALLAH YANG MAHA ESA.

al-faqir Muhibbuddin Islambouli

Nikmat Lapang

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Memasuki fasa awal sebagai pelajar tahun akhir,
Aku lihat ramai di antara rakan-rakan yang sudah mulai risau pelbagai halnya.
Biasa.

Tetapi pabila ku mulai dengar keluhan 'sibuk',
Aku rasa tidak kena.
'Sibuk' mungkin ya.
Tetapi 'sangat sangat sibuk'.
Tidak.
Tidak untuk aku.

Jujur harus aku katakan,
Walaupun dengan pelbagai tugasan kian menimbun,
Projek tahun akhir yang buat ku buntu,
Dan pelbagai hal-hal lain,
Aku tetap merasa nikmat kelapangan yang teramat.

Kini aku makin kerap pulang rumah,
Kebanyakan hujung minggu ku tidak terisi dengan program khas,
Malam-malam ku juga terasa lapang sahaja.

Lalu aku tersedar,
Barangkali kerana aku sudah terbiasa sibuk,
Jadi pabila telah ditinggalkan segala tugas yang dahulu,
Terasa begitu banyak sekali masa yang aku ada,
Walaupun masih banyak perkara perlu diurus.
Kerana jika dibandingkan dengan dahulu,
Mahu terkejar selesaikan segala.

Alhamdulillah 'al kulli hal.
Segala puji bagi Allah bagi setiap perkara.
Moga diberi aku bantuan untuk menguruskan nikmat lapang ini dengan baik,
Agar ia sentiasa terisi dengan perkara bermanfaat.

Guest Writer

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As much as I am happy to get myself back in writing, I'm much happier to have a person as my guest writer soon Insya Allah! May this will benefit any of the visitors who have accidentally come by this humble blog of mine. May this will motivate me to write even more. 

Insya Allah

-write to inspire journey-

The Writer's Struggle

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It's almost the end of October. 

As you can see from the archives, my writing achievement has been declining very badly since I started my practical earlier this year. Although it has officially ended few months ago, I still can't be back on the track that I used to walk on despite of the ample time that I have now. 

I'm basically running out of ideas to write, and yes, I do struggle to keep active in writing. I have made some drafts and list of topics that I want to write, but sometimes as I write, my mind would stuck and in the end, there is only zero for writing. There are times that I want to write, just about some typical stuffs, but then I was demotivated to continue when I thought my typical writings are just too cliche, and it would not be beneficial to the readers (if there's any), hence it would be a waste. Because my aim of writing, apart from expressing my thoughts and feelings, I also aim to produce something that can really benefit others. I write with the aim to inspire other people. I write with the aim to relief those hearts who are in the state of unease. 

Perhaps, I've been aiming too high. 

If I cannot be persistent in this writing journey, and be consistent in producing good writings (doesn't matter if it is cliche or not), how am I supposed to write something that would inspire other people?

Isn't it?

So I guess, the very first step that I should do after this is to try my very best to write something at least, twice a month. I can't be excited to set my target so high as I'm coming back to my baby steps in this writing journey. Hopefully, one day, I would inspire people through the things that I love --- writing. 

My Dearest Love

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My parents may not be perfect. Nobody has one. But I am grateful, that whenever I need them, they will always gonna be there, even if they are far away from me. I know I can always rely on them when I need help, or I need comfort. I know that no matter how much I hurt them, they would always open their arms and forgive me. I know if I am down, they would always hold my hand tight, giving me the best motivation that I need to move forward. They are the most precious gift God has ever given to me. No matter what happens, no matter how much dissatisfaction I used to hold, there will be no one that could replace these two diamonds. If I were to get married in the future, and have a loving husband, it still cannot beat the love that you both have showered me since I was a kid. I know, wherever I go, I will always be treated like a little girl. If one day, I were to be treated badly, or feel unloved, I will always remember, that at least when I was born, I mean the world to you and I have been loved so so much by both of you, and all the people around me.  

As the eldest, I know I will always be your first love.

May Allah bless both of you, Ummi and Abi. 

Leka

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Aduhai dikau sang gadis yang rapuh hatinya,

Harus diingatkan selalu bahawa pada saat hati mulai berbunga, itulah saat yang paling bahaya. Oh so fragile. Mudahnya, diberikan kau harapan, lantas berbunga hati, gembira sepanjang masa, lalu terus lupa pada pemberi nikmat bahagia.

Lalai. Alpa. Leka.
Mainan syaitan durjana sangat licik dan hebat.

Harus diingat ya Habibti, andainya satu hari nanti kalau Allah izinkan untuk kau disatukan dengan orang yang kau cinta, ia bukanlah bermaksud perjuangan kau telah selesai. Sebenarnya, di situlah ujian lebih berat akan menimpa, perjuangan lebih besar perlu kau bawa. Jangan kau ingat halalnya ikatan itu nanti menandakan kau lebih bebas. Bahkan kau sebenarnya lebih terikat. Iman kau akan diuji dengan seberat-beratnya, mahu lihat adakah kau kan mudah lalai dengan cinta manusia, sehingga lupa pada Maha Pencipta.

Bangunlah dari lamunan cinta ini. Ini semua hanya mainan perasaan. Nikmat ini harus dijaga. Bahagialah tetapi jangan terlalu gembira. Doalah mohon perlindungan daripada Allah swt, moga dapat kau dukung cinta lain dengan sempurna melalui kekuatan cinta kepadaNYA.

Malam

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1.30 pagi, dan aku sedang mendengar alunan lagu nasyid yang aku gemari.

Tidak banyak perkara yang sedang difikirkan, tetapi bersepah-sepahlah juga fikiran ini melayang.

Larut malam. Waktu yang paling aku sukai. Ada suatu rasa ketenangan dan kedamaian pada suasana malam yang hening. Tidak bising. Tidak serabut. Tiada gangguan. Kau seorang, bersama Tuhan.

Waktu sebegini, dengan alunan ini, membuat aku kembali kepada kisah lalu. Tidak lama pun. Tidak juga baharu. Tetapi setiap kali ingatan itu kembali, pasti rasa yang sama turut datang menjengah diri. Waktu yang aku rasa sangat serabut dan kusut. Dilema antara hendak atau tidak. Hati kata mahu, tetapi keraguan dan ketakutan tidak mengizinkan. Itulah kali pertamanya aku minta nasihat orang terdekat, berjaga malam, hanya kerana dilema itu. Sedaya upaya aku mahu mendapatkan petunjuk. Kelakar apabila dicerita semula pada orang lain yang tidak berada di tempat aku. Mereka tidak mengerti. Sama sekali tidak mengerti kebuntuan yang melanda diri pada ketika itu.

Membenci dan menyayangi, dua perkara yang berbeza. Mana bisa kau membenci tetapi hati masih menyayangi.

Aku pernah membenci sehingga tidak mahu didengar namanya, mahupun dipandang wajahnya. Sebegitu sekali tahap kebencian aku pernah dijangkau. Kononnyalah. Sedangkan dalam hati, kau sendiri lebih mengerti, Tuhan juga Maha Mengerti. Mana bisa isi hati dinafi. Kau tahu? Apabila kau benci, tetapi masih rasa simpati, masih merindui, punya harapan yang tersemat di hati, itu tandanya kau cinta. Benci engkau itu tanda cinta!

Haihlaaaa hati. Banyak sekali kau diuji. 

To Show, Love

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Semalam sebelum keluar untuk beli barang yang dipesan oleh Ummi, Abi tanya "Naik air yogurt tak?". Of courselah jawab aku "Naaakkk!". Favourite kot! And he eventually brought back 4 bottles of yogurt drinks.

Pagi tadi, Ummi masuk kejutkan aku. Duduk bersama senyuman di sebelah aku yang masih baring di katil, sambil tanya malam tadi tidur pukul berapa and she tickled me. Heheeee. Aku terasa macam masih anak kecil, dan aku amat rindukan momen itu.

Cinta.

Kadangkala tidak perlu diucap atau dilafaz melalui bibir.

Perbuatan dan tindakan.

Penzahiran cinta yang paling menusuk kalbu. 

MindRant 19

tengah marah punya pasal.

geram. 

'Cuti Pertama'

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Alhamdulillah, 6 bulan praktikal dah pun tamat dengan jayanya Jumaat lepas. Awal pagi aku mengemas barang-barang sedia untuk bawa pulang sejurus selepas habis kerja. Kemudian aku duduk sebentar. Berpandangan dengan rakan sepraktikal aku. Masing-masing ada senyum di bibir. "Ingat lagi waktu hari pertama balik daripda kerja, kita kata baruuuuu habis satu hari". Dan hari ini 6 bulan itu bakal berakhir. To be exact, sebenarnya 6 bulan seminggu, sebab company extend seminggu memandangkan cuti Raya Cina dan Aidilfitri tak dikira.

Pagi tu aku pergi ke kerja dengan senyuman yang lebar, extra manis (eh?), sambil pasang lagu raya, just because it is the last day. Hihi. The day that have been waited for so long. Sampai-sampai je office, penuh semangat aku ucap Zao An (selamat pagi) dekat Uncle driver lori yang kerja di situ.

So at last, my semester break starts!

Cuti semester kali ini baru benar-benar rasa macam cuti. Aku cuba merajinkan diri di rumah memandangkan cuti-cuti yang dahulu memerlukan aku pulang kolej awal bagi komitmen tugasan yang telah diberi. Hujung minggu juga bukan selalu aku dapat pulang ke rumah. Kalaupun aku dapat pulang, aku guna sepenuhnya untuk rehat. Jadi kali ini, aku azam untuk manfaatkan sebaik mungkin.

Semalam, kerana craving yang sudah lama dan kerajinan yang tiba-tiba datang, maka terhasillah bubur kacang merah dan longan (and sago bits). Disebabkan Ummi kata sedap, jadi aku benar-benar yakin bubur ini menjadi dengan jayanya! Alhamdulilllah! Yeay!

Sebenarnya aku tengah cuba sebaik mungkin bantu Ummi uruskan rumah, because I know, sepanjang kami adik-beradik tak ada kat rumah, segalanya kurang terurus kerana Ummi sibuk dan penat bekerja. To know that Ummi is soooo glad that we are at home is a joy for me and the rest of us. 

Okeh! Kita tengok esok-esok kerajinan ni maintain atau tidak. Hopefully yes, hiks!

MindRant 18

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Terlihat
Tunduk
Malu

I felt so far away.
Too far from reaching the target.
What strength do I have to reach the stage?

This is the same reason, of why I sometimes dislike big gathering.
This is the same reason, of why I left IRIS the other day.

Of Marriage Again: It Will Happen At The Right Time

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Her, 
Age: 21
Status: Just Married

Another her,
Age: 22
Status: Married, and a son

Just one more her, 
Age: 22
Status: Married, and a daughter

And I, 
Age: 22
Status: Single

And I was like.. "I'm just 22 by the way" *waving*

Phewww! Looking at all of the wedding invitations, and so far, JUST SO FAR, there are 10 of them, and I probably has miscounted some invitations, so it could be more than 10. Well, I may need not the travel list. If I attended all of these, I could be considered traveling almost half of this country, excluding the Borneo.

So what most newly weds do, or even if they do not, the guests will do? Posting wedding pictures in social media. The pre-wedding and the post-wedding so on so forth will be flocking the news feed, and I will be enjoying looking at those pictures, on one condition: of moderate amount please!

Scrolling through the news feed, I could see the comments made by some of their friends, or relatives, or long-lost friends who happened to be the silent reader all this while, and just start commenting on the picture because she/he could not believe that their also-long-lost-friends have got married, at such young age! Most will congratulate, and wish for their happiness, and some... "Cepatnya kahwin awak. Kita ntah bilalah lagi. Hmmm", or "Bestnya dah kahwin!".

*krik krik krik*

Yeah, the so-called insecurities of not-yet-married, not-yet-get-a-job, not-yet-graduate bla bla bla will always fall on this age of us, or for as long as you had not reach any one of those 'goals'. The worries on what the future beholds for all of us will never be an end. It would always be the scariest thing because of its uncertainty.

And I can only geleng kepala and giggle while reading those kinds of comments.

Oh dear, I do not want to say much. But I will just give you one simple advice: be patient. Fasobrun Jameel. Patience is beauty and patience is the best way of all. Allah has even promised, that there are wonderful things will be granted to those whom with patience.

Hold on dear. Everything will happen at the right time. And your time will come, soon insya Allah.

I've get used to these now. And I'm still cool with it. Hiks.

Raya Blue

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Berbiru-biru tahun ini.

Salam Aidilfitri!

Antara Pil dan Aku

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Tempoh hari, 

Selesai sarapan, 2 biji supplement aku readykan untuk telan. Ada air teh ready secawan, nak buat telan pil.

Sebiji aku ambil, letak dalam mulut, minum air, telan.

Beberapa saat kemudian aku muntahkan semula ubat tu. Terbatuk-batuk, lalu dipandang sahaja ubat tu. Mengeluh sendiri.

And now I remembered the ultimate reason of why I'd always rejecting pills. Mengeluh lagi. 

Sebenarnya, aku baru nak bermula semula dengan habit baru ni. Sebelum ni aku berhenti daripada makan supplement vitamin C sebab terpengaruh dengan 'nasihat' kawan aku yang katanya "Sebelum makan kena consult dengan doktor dahulu, sebab kita tak tahu keperluan badan kita ni berapa, entah-entah terlebih vitamin C. Kan ada mudarat." So lepas habis sebotol, aku dah tak beli lagi. Takut punya pasal. Padahal Abi yang belikan dulu sejak sekolah menengah sebab aku selalu selsema, batuk, demam yang datang tiba-tiba, pergi pun tiba-tiba. Even dekat rumah pun adik-adik amalkan perkara yang sama. Tak ada apa pun yang mudarat setakat ni.

Umum mengetahui bahawasanya aku adalah anti-ubat pil yang sejati, terutamanya panadol. Aku siap sorok ubat bawah bantal sebab tak nak makan. Ye, scene-scene gadis sakit yang degil sorok ubat bawah bantal serta buang dalam tong sampah tu aku benar-benar buat dalam realiti. Hahaha. Kononnya nak elak long-term effect makan ubat pil (kidney residue bla bla bla), dan sebab aku memang susah nak menelan ubat pil terutamanya yang bersaiz XXL. Macam Abi.

Ini juga punca kenapa aku berhenti makan supplement VCO (Virgin Coconut Oil) yang aku pernah amalkan sekejap dulu. Lagi-lagi kalau kena telan dengan air kosong sahaja. Lagilah tak tertelan. Air aku minum, pil aku muntahkan. Kalau air manis pun belum tentu, inikan pula air kosong. Sekali lagi, ini juga macam Abi. Dan aku sememangnya sentiasa hairan dengan golongan yang mampu menelan ubat tanpa air. Tak tercekik ke?

Tapi itu dululah. Sekarang dah tak cukup sejati kerana senggugut yang sentiasa menyerang, dan ketidaktahanan menanggung bila selsema teruk menyerang, kena srot srot dalam kelas, hidung sumbat waktu tidur, kepala berat, lalu akhirnya aku akur sahaja dengan pil. So sejak itu, aku haruslah kental dan redah sahaja selepas kena ceramah dengan doktor. Sudahlah tengah sakit, lagi dimarahinya. Sabar jelah. Tapi ada waktu yang aku boleh tahan tu, aku tahanlah.

Hari ini alhamdulillah aku masih amalkan makan supplement ni despite of the first bad experience after quite a long time. Tapi, aku telan dengan kopi. Semalam aku telan dengan vico. Kelmarin aku telan dengan air teh. Hari sebelum tu, aku cuba lagi telan dengan air kosong, tapi tak berjaya. Jadi air kosong tu aku bancuhkan sedikit dengan kordial oren tanpa gula, semata-mata nak bagi ada rasa. Lama-lama aku fikir, ini semua psikologi je ni a.k.a mengada-ngada. Tetapi walau bagaimana gigihnya aku betulkan mindset aku ni, pil tu tetap tak boleh ditelan tanpa air manis bersama. Hoho.

Harapan aku untuk jangka masa panjang: aku cuma harap tak ada side effect bila consume dengan minuman manis. Lagi-lagi kopi tu. >.<

By the way, adik-adik dah mula jalankan kempem boikot kopi terhadap aku disebabkan kedegilan aku untuk kurangkan jumlah pengambilannya. Cis! 

Giving Up Fashion

Assalamualaikum wbt

Ku teliti satu per satu
Gaya begini gaya begitu

"Aihhh lecehnya!!"

Akhirnya aku pin tepi sahaja macam biasa.
Simple.

MindRant 17

Masalahnya bukan dulu aku sengaja canang,
tetapi mahu gembira kongsi sama,
sedih luah rasa.

Sekarang bila ada yang ungkit kembali,
aku terasa seperti disindir.
Sebab dahulu beriyanya nak rak,
Syok sendiri!

Yelah. Silapnya akulah juga.
Patutnya lain kali diam-diam sahaja.

Udahler. Aku sudah mengerti.
Semuanya kini aku diam sahaja.
Ada tidak ada, masa jua yang akan khabarkan nanti.

To Not Worry

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I do not know what is hidden over there ---- future.
Thinking about the days after today has always been the scariest thing.
So much hope, yet so much worry too.
Sometimes you just need to pretend that everything is OK by assumption.
As in: Today you are doing it alright, so you assume that later, everything is going to be alright too.

That way.

But hopeful can become hopeless.
So do fearful can become fearless.
As much as it suppose to take time to change from one phase to another,
It could also change in just a blink of eyes.

Unexpectedly.

In all kind of situations,
You have the tendency for everything.
To fall,
To crawl,
To walk,
To run.

Everything

Thus,
Worrying should not be one's habit.
For this world is just a transition,
A place full of unjust and cruelness.
And it should not be the biggest concern either.

No matter how, you are gonna go through it,
And most probably,
In the end,
You might not even realized that you have gotten over it.

Successfully.

MindRant 16

Assalamualaikum wbt

Bulan,
Semakin kelihatan sabitnya.
Sayu sahaja rasa.

Kita semua tahu,
Ramadhan kian pergi.

Malu

Assalamualaikum wbt

Baru terjatuh sebab lantai licin pun kau dah rasa malu sebab kau jatuh depan orang ramai.
Padahal itu bukan salah kau pun.
Cuba kau bayangkan kau di padang mahsyar nanti.
Satu per satu amalan kau, kesalahan kau akan dipaparkan di khalayak ramai, yang ramainya sejak dari zaman nabi Adam sehinggalah kiamat.
Sudah tentu berkali-kali ganda rasa malu kau.
Tak cukup malu, rasa sesal pula tu.

Bayangkan.

Practicing Muslim

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One day during my internship in The Garden, I was asked by the Nepalese staff over there,

"Jie Jie, why do you sit down when you're drinking?"

And I have quite a hard time explaining to him because… he does not know what is sunnah, or who is Muhammad SAW, and he doesn't even know what is prophet! How was I going to explain??!

At last, "Ermm. Islam teach us to do this.". Simple, but not a satisfaction definitely, and he just said "Ohhh" and nodded.

Few days after, while I was drinking, he called me, "Jie jie, why you no sit down?".

At that time, I could only say, "Oh! I forgot!". But I immediately thought, "Shame on you lah!"

Because 'yesterday' you explained about it with enthusiasm, and 'today' you do not practice what you've preached. You are being inconsistent. However, on the positive side of it, it served as a reminder for me.

Carrying yourself as a Muslim in a place where people do not understand your religion can be tough, but that's the challenge, and that's perhaps a way for me to always remind myself to show good vibes and examples for the non-Muslims especially. 

And from that day onward, more questions were being asked. I couldn't explain with the correct terms, but as long as he understood, that was good enough for me. And the best thing is, he would always be asking " Jie jie, you pray already?" or  when he needed to walk on a narrow area, "Jie jie, excuse me pleaassseeee. I want to walk. Cannot touch touch maaa".

There  =)

"I'm not a good Muslim, but I'm a practicing Muslim" 

Confession!

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Confession page.

Aku dah baca beberapa page confession dari macam-macam 'organisasi'. Kesimpulan yang aku dapat buat adalah, betapa ianya mengajar manusia untuk menjadi pengecut dan saling mengaibkan. Tidak mahu menegur berdepan tetapi mahu seantero dunia tahu si fulan dan fulanah telah begini begitu. Walaupun kedua-dua pihak tidak dinamakan, pasti ada segelintir pembaca yang dapat meneka. Andai tidak dapat meneka pun, perkara lebih buruk akan berlaku ------ andaian.

Tidak tahukah engkau tentang padahnya membuat andaian?
Bahawa andaian itu boleh membawa kepada fitnah?

And here is my confession:
I hate confession pages.
It creates the so called keyboard warrior and creates even more barrier between the mankind.

MindRant 15

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I spent the whole week browsing lots of online shops that could provide the best deal for the items that I want.

This special item.

Orders made.
Paid.
Done.

Waiting for the parcels to arrive.

And now I am left wondering,
"Sungguh betul kau ni. Memang nekad habis."

I'm suddenly in a state of disbelief.
"How did I get that courage and confidence?"

Now I just need to wait for the time to put on the pieces on my head.
Fear, doubt and worry is playing hide-and-seek.
It may look small, but big for me.

May Allah ease.

The Careless One With Too Much Plans

Assalamualaikum wbt

Guess what I've been doing for the past few hours?

Watching lace stitching tutorial on Youtube and blogs!! And I watched them with so much focus!

I must be crazy to do this, but yes I did.

Since I'm going on 22, and about to graduate for another 1 year, and realize how hard it is to earn money after going through 5 months of practical, and how much money I've spent these few months on ridiculous and careless matter ----- accidents and rents, I finally came to the sense that I need to do something to save and earn money.

When I talk about saving money, people would immediately responded with 'Saving for wedding ehhhh?'. Aaaaaaa, does saving money must necessarily be for wedding? With current economic situation in our country, young generations like me, have got to be prepared financially for the future life ahead. Life is tough people. Anything can happen, especially at the times when you are least expecting it. Like what happened when I accidentally hit on someone's car and have to pay for the cost of repairing, and also when I accidentally broken a lady's spectacles in Surau and have to pay for the repairing cost too. If you were in my situation and easily get panic, you would immediately thought 'Oh dielah how am I going to pay for this??!' *nanges* Though there's always a way to solve it. Biasalah. Gelabah. Hahah.

But Alhamdulillah, luckily, I'm in the middle of my practical. So I have my allowance money to be used for those accidents. But then, there goes my allowance money. Before I started my practical, I've already intend to use them for my own expenses, no more asking money from Ummi. At least, for 6 months. Ahaha. I remembered when I received my first 'salary', I felt so grown up, so proud, and happily told Ummi 'After this Ummi you don't have to give me monthly expenses anymore!'. Ceh! Alik-alik, after the accidents happened, I end up going back to my mother and said 'Ummi, I have to depends on you now'.

Tak apalah. Perancangan Allah tu lebih baik.

So who says money is not important? It is! Just don't make it as an ultimate priority lah.

Sooo, the reason I happened to be so eager watching videos on stitching tutorials are because of two reasons: First, my frustration towards the expensive simple dresses that are extremely famous nowadays that I decided to do it myself; Second, my plan to start a business on my own.

You know what's in my head right now? I thought of taking sewing classes, learn how to sew simple clothing like baju kurung, blouses, jubah, baju melayu and learn how to do the beading as well. I also plan to sharpen my sketching and doodling skills, and start doodling on tote bags, t-shirts and all. Oh wait, there's more. I plan to learn making cakes and desserts as well!

So with all of these, I am hoping to open up a boutique, or a cafe, or a boutique cafe, and have my own labels. Why not right? Sounds nice. Looks beautiful. Because all of these are my favourite things and my passion. Wouldn't it be perfect to have your own business based on your passion?

Too ambitious? Nehhh. Insya Allah, if I am deadly serious on this and make efforts for it, Allah will show me the way. I have some other plans in my head too but I thought, hold on ma cherie. One by one.

May all of these plans, will not JUST be plans. Biiznillah.

Yeah, that's me. The one with too much plans. The clumsy and careless one. 

MindRant 14

Assalamualaikum wbt

Looking back to these 5 months of internship,
I thought the challenges and the hardships that I need to faced during the period are just too much. By saying 'too much', I don't mean 'melampau' or 'I shouldn't be facing all these hardships'. I just thought 'Why so manyyyyy and continuouslyyyyyy?'. My friend even laughed at me when I told her about all of these, 'Apa lagi kau niii tak sudah-sudah hahaaaa'.

Nevertheless, I felt grateful, for each one of the hardships that I need to face, contains lessons that Allah want me to take and bear in mind. Allah kata dia takkan bagi orang-orang yang beriman tu free free je tak ada ujian tak ada susah. Logiknya, orang yang berjaya yang diiktiraf dan disanjung semestinya sudah melalui pelbagai susah payah sebelum dia berjaya. Wajibulghunnah! Kalau tak, tak rasalah nikmat kejayaan tu.

Hardships make a man!

Fading Flower by Yuna

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"You can't tear me down

Beat me to the ground

Try to block my sunshine

My blue skies with your clouds

And who do you think you are

Yeah that won't get you far

You may think you're pretty

But you'll see that beauty

Is a fading flower"

One of my favourite song by Yuna.

Stating how beauty is not a necessity. 

Imbas

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Sedang aku memandu ke Bazar Ramadhan tempoh hari, di kejauhan aku dapat lihat orang ramai berkerumun seolah-olah sedang menyaksikan sesuatu.

What a familiar scene.

Saat aku melalui orang ramai itu, kelihatan seorang pakcik tua sedang mengawal lalulintas dan turut kelihatan juga seperti sekujur badan di atas jalan, barangkali sedang menahan kesakitan.

Aku dengan segera palingkan muka. Tidak sanggup melihatnya. Kerana ingatan aku terus kembali pada kemalangan yang terjadi pada rakan seperjuangan.

Itu, saat yang paling menakutkan bagi aku.

Aku masih ingat felo menerima panggilan dan terus memaklumkan tentang kemalangan tersebut. Betapa hati kami yang sedang teruja menunggu ketibaan rakaan kami, berubah 360 darjah, berdegup deras membimbangkan keadaan mereka.

Aku masih ingat sewaktu kami menghampiri kawasan kejadian. dari jauh kelihatan orang ramai sedang berkerumun, dan kami lihat dua tubuh bertshirt program yang sedang terbaring di tepi jalan. Saat itu kami tahu, itulah mereka!

Ya, pemandangan itu, sama seperti yang di atas.

Aku masih ingat sebaik kereta diberhentikan, terus kami berlari ke tempat kejadian di seberang untuk melihat keadaan mereka berdua.

Aku masih ingat wajah mereka menanggung kesakitan yang tidak terperi sambil ditenangkan seorang lagi rakan sementara menunggu ambulans sampai.

Aku masih ingat setibanya aku di hadapan mereka, menggigil seluruh badan ini kerana tidak pernah berhadapan situasi sebegini. Dan aku pun tidak pernah menggigil sebegitu rupa. Laju air mata melimpah kerana aku tidak tahu apa perlu dibuat, panik, rasa tidak berupaya sebagai ketua dan beratnya hati melihat mereka menanggung kesakitan. Sedangkan baru sebentar sahaja sebelum itu, aku berjumpa mereka dalam keadaan ceria dan senyum keduanya.

Saat yang paling meruntun hati sehingga kami terpaksa dibawa pulang dahulu untuk bertenang.

Kini semakin sembuh keduanya walau masih perlu mengambil masa. Tiada antara kami mahu mengingati apa yang telah terjadi. Aku doakan semoga keduanya cepat sembuh dan dipermudahkan segala urusan.

Syafakallah.

Coretan Cliche Buat Ummi, Buat Abi

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Tiba-tiba,
Memori lalu datang menjengah,
Satu per satu.

Ingatkan Abi,
Ingatkan Ummi.

Susah payah mereka,
Tidak mereka peduli.
Susah payah aku,
Sentiasa mereka kasihani.
Tidak pernah ditinggalkan,
Walaupun berjauhan.
Mereka sentiasa ada,
Walaupun tidak bersama.

Ingin sahaja aku cerita satu per satu
Segala payah perit yang telah dilalui.
Namun untuk apa?
Orang lain pun susah sama.

Ampun,
Banyak kekecewaan yang aku berikan,
Berbanding dengan kegembiraan.
Meski engkau sentiasa terima selagi aku telah usaha,
Namun aku tetap rasa hampa.

Biarlah nanti,
Ummi Abi,
Akan aku tunaikan janji,
Selagi mana terdaya oleh diri.

Mungkin sahaja coretan ini tampak biasa
Cliche di pandangan mata yang membaca
Tetapi inilah yang aku termampu
Untuk menzahirkan rasa rindu.

Salam sejahtera Ummi Abi,
Moga Allah sentiasa rahmati.

I've Grown Up!

Assalamualaikum wbt

Yesterday, I'm a little girl.
Today, I'm a lady.
Tomorrow, I'm a woman,
And probably, someone else's wife, 
With successful career and business. 

Alhamdulillah, Lina has safely delivered her baby this morning. A boy. I'm so happy ya Allah i just do not know how to describe this feeling.  I just can't believe how fast the time has traveled, leaving me and the rest of mankind with disbelief and lots of surprises.

Yesterday, I drive myself to the laundry shop to settle my laundry. I went to Bazar Ramadhan alone to buy food. I went to the tailor alone to alter my dress. I went to buy groceries alone. I go to work everyday, driving a car, alone. Everything, all alone. And then, at one moment, I stopped and looked at myself, of how much I've grown up and be independent.

It sucks to be adult, because as you're growing up, things get even complicated, commitments are multiplied, everything gets tougher, and the worst part of growing up is, in the end, you will realize that you are all alone and only you can push yourself to strive. But the best thing is that, you got to see your own transition from one phase to another. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Oh well, this is life.
Then again, this is only dunia. A place for us to invest on for the eternal akhirat.
The question is, how much have we prepared ourselves?

Time to muhasabah.

Sebelum Melangkah Tahun Akhir

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hari terakhir sebelum cuti semester bermula esok, dan kedengaran bunyi bagasi ditarik turun tangga, serta habuk yang berterbangan kerana masing-masing memunggah bilik untuk dikemas.

Kecuali aku.

Yang berkemas untuk pindah kolej, dan hanya akan pulang lama ke rumah selepas tamatnya praktikal. Haih.

Hampir 2 minggu berpuasa di sini bersama rakan-rakan, berkejar semua hendak buka bersama, sementara mereka masih ada di sini menghabiskan peperiksaan yang dihadapi. Isnin sampai Ahad, ada saja 'temujanji'.

Zaman belajar inilah nak luangkan masa dengan mereka. Nanti kelak dah tamat belajar, masing-masing sudah berkerjaya, sambung belajar, berumahtangga dan berkeluarga, peluang untuk berkumpul itu makin sedikit. Mungkin juga, tiada langsung peluang. 

Maka waktu dan peluang yang aku ada ini, aku cuba gunakan sebaiknya. 

Terasa masa pantas benar berlalu. Sekejap sahaja, aku sudah akan masuk ke tahun keempat, tahun terakhir pengajian insya Allah. Perbualan kami bila berkumpul sekarang mesti tidak akan lari daripada topik FYP, praktikal, dan... kahwin! Hahaaaaa

Entah bila lagi kita akan berkumpul begini. Akan datang, mungkin aku pun sudah patut mula memperlahankan diri sedikit demi sedikit. Entah. Kita biar waktu berlalu memberikan jawapan. Harapan aku... semoga aku kahwin nanti semua dapat datang! Eheh? Astaghfirullah. Bukan. Harapan aku, semoga di mana jua pun kita berada nanti, persahabatan kita tetap utuh, dan di kejauhan masing-masing nanti, biarlah kita tetap sentiasa saling mendoakan. 

Ladies, Ini Untuk Kita.

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hairan aku dengan, 
The so-called muslimah fashion nowadays.

Hijabista hipster kata mereka.
Segalanya, atas nama cantik.

Pakaian,
Seluar senteng pun cantik.
Baju sendat pun cantik.
Baju pendek pun cantik. 

Tudung,
Lilitan tak kemas pun cantik.
Selendang tak bergosok pun cantik.
Tidak tutup dada, 
Tidak tutup leher,
Tak apa, tetap cantik.

Apabila,
Segalanya, atas nama agama,

Bila ditegur aurat, 
Disuruh biarkan,
Tak apalah tak sempurna,
Sekurang-kurangnya dia ada usaha tutup aurat.

Bila ditegur tabarruj,
Dikata tak apa,
Islam tak melarang umatnya berhias,
Malah Tuhan suka pada yang indah-indah.

Segalanya, ada sahaja hujah yang disediakan untuk membela diri, 
Melepaskan diri daripada rasa bersalah. 

Soalanku padamu wahai Muslimah, 
"Redha siapakah yang engkau cari?"

Maafkan aku, yang juga masih bertatih. Namun isu aurat bukanlah perkara yang harus diremeh-temeh dan bukan perkara yang harus diambil mudah. Perintah tentangnya disebut jelas di dalam Al-Quran tanpa berkias.

Kita tidak boleh menafikan bahawa manusia akan sentiasa 'Judge a book by its cover'. Terimalah, dalam penilaian seseorang, pakaian adalah persepsi pertamanya. Duta agama yang paling obvious dan paling mudah dilihat. Usah dipandang sebelah mata, kerana sesungguhnya, ia penjaga maruah dan pelindung pandangan mata yang liar.

Bukanlah aku minta engkau berjubah mahupun bertudung labuh. Cukuplah sempurnanya apabila ia mengikut syariat. Kemudian, sedikit demi sedikit, kita tambahkanlah labuhannya sebagai lambang kerendahan hati juga ketakwaan kepada Allah swt.

Percayalah, yang luaran itu, mampu untuk mendidik yang dalaman. Perlahan-lahan, tetapi jangan sampai ketinggalan. Aku juga masih berusaha.

Semoga dipermudahkan buat kita semua.

Teman ke Putrajaya

Assalamualaikum wbt

Malam di Putrajaya
Sepinggan mi goreng udang
Secawan teh ais
Sebuah bicara
Bersama yang dicinta

Cukup bahagia.

Terima kasih Tikah!

Factor of Analysis

Assalamualaikum wbt

Just like how maturity is not defined by age,
your level of concern is not defined by how much post that you share.

You cannot judge a person through the things that you see virtually.

Who knows,
those silent readers could be the most concerning of all.

Because the initial noble intention for the posts that are shared,
have most probably been corrupted with cunning heart diseases that bring pride to the individual.

Nauzubillahiminzalik.
May we all be protected from the heart diseases that make the good deeds worthless.

Work vs Study

Assalamualaikum wbt

Pheww, at last, something to write!

I've been too busy with practical work recently since I've been transferred to a new department. Now I'm currently doing my practical under Operation & Training Department in The Garden outlet. Although night shift is quite tiring because you will go back home late, but I prefer it more than morning shift because I got plenty of time to get the chores done in the morning before getting myself ready to go to work.

Working is tough, and super duper exhausting.

For the first few days in the outlet, I suffered from terrible backache, swollen foot, cramp and lower back pain. And the first few days have also witnessed myself being quiet sensitive and emotional because those pains, remind me of the suffers that Ummi and Abi need to go through to raise us all up. Every time I feel the pain, my heart would crushed and my eyes would started to get teary. At the end of first day in my new department, I texted them, showing my gratitude and how much I understood the hardships that they need to face while working. The fact is, this is the reality that I need to face soon when I have really started working. In fact, this is the reality that almost everyone will soon face.

Now, it has almost been 3 weeks in this department. Alhamdulillah, Allah has eased me a lot by giving me the ability to learn things fast and to have such cheerful colleagues to help me go through the days in the outlet. Wallahi, I could not have done this without the help from Allah the Almighty,

Entering the 3rd month of practical and I've started to miss going to class so badly. The exhaustion and the pain remind me to appreciate study life even more. There is the joy and pain for both of it, and we all need to really look into them deeply and find hikmah for every single thing that occurs in both life.

Looking forward towards July!
The end of practical training. =D

     

Best Companion

Assalamualaikum wbt

A good white coffee is always a good companion for an off day.

And tomorrow, 

let's get back to work. 

Worth The Pay?

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Duduk termenung aku fikirkan,
Sudahkah sedia?

Tak perlu dikata.
Tak perlu juga beriya,
Nanti tambah kecewa.

Apa lagi yang dirunsingkan?

Bila ku baca dan dengar,
Pelbagai kisah versi berbeza,
Buat ku fikir,
Ada susah ada senangnya,
Ada yang mudah di awal,
Ada yang mudah di akhir,
Tapi susah itu pasti kan ada.

Jadi bolehkah aku?
Kau?
Kita?
Semua?

Entah.
Yang pasti,
Something that is worth it, must have a price to be paid.

Kita Semua Bersaudara

Assalamualaikum wbt

Sewaktu cuba mendapatkan penajaan daripada sebuah kedai buku di Bangi,

Pekerja: Maaf, saya tak boleh buat apa-apa. Tapi saya boleh bagi nombor pemilik kedai ni untuk kamu bincang bersama nanti.

Diserahkannya nombor telefon dan nama pemiliknya yang bernama Siti.

Asiff: Terima kasih. Bagaimana kami patut gelar beliau? Cik atau Puan?

Pekerja: Panggil sahaja 'sister'. Kami di sini memanggil sesama kami dengan 'sister' dan 'brother'. Kita semua saudara dalam Islam. Panggil sahaja 'sister'.

Masya Allah, aku sangat terharu dan tersentuh dengan kata-kata pekerja tu. Terasa kita disambut baik dan dialu-alukan sangat apabila diucap begitu. Dia mengiktiraf kita sebagai saudaranya atas nama agama. Dan inilah sebaiknya akhlak Muslim yang patut ditonjol pada semua, yang patut diamalkan dan disemai dalam diri setiap yang bergelar Muslim.

Lantas aku teringat petikan daripada sebuah hadis mengenai hubungan sesama Muslim,

'… Seorang Muslim adalah saudara bagi Muslim yang lainnya, dia tidak menzaliminya dan mengabaikannya, tidak mendustakannya dan tidak menghinanya… '  (HR Muslim)

Allah swt berfirman,

إنماٱﻟﻣﺅﻣنونإخوة

'Orang-orang beriman itu sesungguhnya bersaudara' (surah Al-Hujurat, ayat 10)

Aku fikir ini juga sebuah teguran dan kesedaran secara tidak langsung buat aku. Pabila kita anggap sesama kita bersaudara, atas nama agama, dan kerana Allah, kita akan sentiasa hadir dan bertemu dengan prasangka yang baik, dan segala persengkataan boleh dielak, seterusnya bersatu demi menyumbang dan membangunkan ummah.

Moga kita semua diberi hidayah oleh Allah untuk sentiasa membudayakan akhlak yang baik, dan menjadi qudwah hasanah bagi orang lain untuk kembali kepada Allah dan mendekati agama ini. Insya Allah.

Leading Yourself

Assalamualaikum wbt

Alhamdulillah, KPSM has ended few weeks ago, I've already started my industrial training, and this is a delayed post. Obviously.

Being a leader was never an easy job and will never be, even if you have great support and cooperation from your team. Because in the end, you are all by yourself.  

We always thought that leadership is about leading other people to a great thing, but through my experiences, I think leadership is about leading yourself. You've got to show that you are good despite of your weaknesses, then only can people look up and follow. 

This experience has really made me see another side of me. Sometimes, you just do not know who you are actually until your are given things to handle and to face. This time, I see so much weaknesses in me. So much, and just too much! But all of those did not break my spirit. Instead, those are the things that will keep me motivated to improvise and keep on learning.

I enjoy it and this will definitely be remembered. 

I'd rather look back at my life and say "I can't believe I did that" instead of saying, "I wish I did that."

My task ends here.

Coffee Talk

Assalamualaikum wbt

I super duper love love love hanging out this way with favourite people in my life. I just love the feel of sharing or hearing a story from friends or family while sipping on a cup of latte. It feels so warm. It feels so calm. And I feel so loved!

Today we did it. Right after Asiff's sister's wedding, we went to have an evening coffee talk. Coffee hunting konon-kononnya. hehe

You know the good part of this kind of hangout? You can talk about almost anything and seldom, just so seldom will make you feel hesitate to share. It's good to do this sometimes. Just to let out some of the messed-up matters and release a bit of the stress. And the best part is, it is in this kind of hangout that we often hear stories that people won't usually share. Sipping on a large size hazelnut latte, while hearing stories and voicing out your opinions on certain issue is a definite satisfaction.

At the end of our conversation, a question was asked randomly to all of us,

"Agak-agak lepas kerja nanti ada masa tak nak hangout macam ni lagi?"

Hearing it alone has already broke my heart. We will definitely not going to have the 'us' time the same way we did. Soon, other people will enter our life and things won't be the same. It cannot be. As we are stepping towards new phase of life, these are some of the things that we need to leave behind and welcome the new people and new thing with joy and hope.

But then,

Maybe we can. With all of our families, perhaps.

Alternatif Amatur

Assalamualaikum wbt

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Amatur.