The 'Me' Time

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I love this. Alone. In a coffee shop. With a mug of hazelnut latte --- favorite companion for coffee time. Observing. Thinking. Jotting down some thoughts. That's just how I love my 'me' time.

But I know, as much as I love this 'me' time, I am absolutely do not belong to this kind of treat. I hate to say this, but I am definitely belong to the hectic life. Being busy. Being loaded with lots of chores and tasks to do. Having datelines to be followed. I have the tendency to be a workaholic but I refuse to think about it that way because the word sounds negative (to me), so perhaps I could just replace it with the word 'committed'. Yeah, that's better.

Amidst the chaotic life, I love the moment when I can finally sneak some time out for myself. That way, I learn to value my 'me' time even more. It doesn't need luxurious stuff to fill the treat and make me feel good. Sometimes a book and a cup of coffee, and some free time to write is enough to retreat myself.

Everybody has their own way of retreating themselves with 'me time'. It doesn't necessarily need to be on your own. Some people might love to have their best friend accompanying and do what they love to do together. Some people might use it to make self reflection, go to religious classes or talk, do volunteering work, and many more.

Whatever it is, how a person spend the 'me' time does not really matter as long as it does not go against what is prohibited. What matter most is that from each 'me' session, there is a sense of satisfaction to fulfill one's desire of escaping themselves from the daily routine or any problems. We need this. We all need this. With the hope that, every 'me' time can provide us all with a much relieved heart and mind, and of course, a booster to start the routine or to face any problem all over again.

Definisi Cinta

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Cinta, perkataan ini sahaja boleh buat sesiapa sahaja tersenyum dan tersipu. Betapa hebat kuasa cinta ini, sampai ke tahap dia bisa mengubah seseorang baik katanya, rupanya, mahupun tindakannya.

Dulu, bila sembang tentang ini, memang bukan main lagi dibuai-buai perasaannya. Mengelamun. Berangan. Pada setiap lagu-lagu cinta itu, tersimpan berjuta makna pada bait-bait lirik yang diungkap. Semuanya kalau boleh mahu dikait dengan perasaan sediri yang sedang bermain dalam hati.

Tetapi kian dewasa, kian membesar, cinta menjadi perkara yang semakin rumit untuk difikirkan. Kerana visi cinta kita kini telah menjadi lebih besar, lebih realistik, lebih jelas, dan lebih bermakna. Ada matlamat murni yang ingin dicapai untuk manfaat bersama. Bukan lagi samata-mata untuk kepuasan diri atau dilihat sebagai suatu bentuk "keperluan".

Visi ini, jika terlaksana, maka suburlah kasih sayang dalam diri setiap insan. Dengan kasih sayang ini, menjadi motivasi untuk sentiasa berusaha mencapai keharmonian dalam masyarakat, menjadi motivasi untuk mengajak lebih ramai kepada kebaikan, menjadi motivasi untuk diri sendiri terus melakukan kebaikan, yang akhirnya, akan membawa kepada pembinaan ummah yang kuat, kukuh, kental, harmoni, sejahtera dan segalanya yang baik, demi memakmurkan agama Islam pada setiap aspek.

Di puncak cinta ini, tentunya,
adalah untuk membolehkan kita semua sama-sama beroleh tempat di syurga Allah.
Jom, ubah visi cinta kita.

Insya Allah.

From Woman, To Women

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It's International Women's Day and everywhere in the social media, lots of posts have been made with woman as the theme.

As I am writing this down, I am feeling so much grateful and blessed to have been born as a Muslim with a decent family background, enough for me to understand that a woman's creation by God is such a wonder, a symbolic of His Greatness and the fact that Islam came to lift up the level of woman and save them from being degraded. 

Being raised in a family where all of the members are female except my father, we deal with so much emotional rages, so much sensitivity and fight over ridiculous matters, which lead to a question "Why don't I have brothers instead?". However, as I grow up, and as each one of us walking towards maturity, I realised that having them in my life are comforting, and I started to see the strength and positive value in them, and while I go through some hardships as they do, I tend to value them even more. Fights reduced as we all grow, perhaps because we are women, so we tend to understand each other even more (emotionally), and try to give support (even in silence) instead of bashing or neglecting. Most of the times. 

So many strong woman figures around us, an inspiration to their family, children, colleagues, students and everyone! Today, we celebrate the women in our life as an honor for their sacrifices, intelligence, strengths, success and many more good qualities. From Khadijah r.a, to the Queen of our heart ----- our beloved Mother, there are just so many incredible women for us to look up to. Today, they are celebrated, not to fight for equality, but to seek for equity, fairness. At the same time, we must not deny the fact that men and women are created for each other and in need to complete each other as well.

We all have a strong quality that can be benefited for other people. 

We all have that one ADVANTAGE that may not have in others. So utilised it. 

To all the women out there, to all the unsung heroines, 

Happy International Women's Day!

So much love from me. 

  

Just Do It

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This is a very quick one.

Dear beloved Muslims,
Had you come to a point of break down or frustration,
Or you just feel lazy to do your ibadah,
Please wake straight up and JUST DO IT.
Seek forgiveness and ask to keep your iman at its highest position.
Please. I beg you.
You JUST HAVE TO DO IT.
Because one missing prayer, one missing quran recitation,
Can make you vulnerable,
And syaitan can invade you JUST RIGHT AT THAT MOMENT.
So please.

I'm Not A Muslim, But...

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After the Paris attack that occurred recently, Western medias have make it such a huge headline in the newsfeed, causing so much stereotypes to the Muslims entirely without knowing the fact that the so called ISIS are not even Muslims. Even if they are, they are not true Muslims. Seriously, which religion taught a human to do such cruel act to the innocents?

I was browsing on Youtube videos recently, and I stumbled upon this video. "I'm Not A Muslim, But...". It's a video containing little 'speech' and thoughts by some random people saying so much beautiful things about Muslim. Watching it made me feel a little (actually so much) relieve that not all are badly influenced by the media spinning on the terror attack. We still have lots and lots of wonderful people that believe that true Muslims would not do such indecent and horrible act, and that Islam means peace =)

The Writer's Struggle

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It's almost the end of October. 

As you can see from the archives, my writing achievement has been declining very badly since I started my practical earlier this year. Although it has officially ended few months ago, I still can't be back on the track that I used to walk on despite of the ample time that I have now. 

I'm basically running out of ideas to write, and yes, I do struggle to keep active in writing. I have made some drafts and list of topics that I want to write, but sometimes as I write, my mind would stuck and in the end, there is only zero for writing. There are times that I want to write, just about some typical stuffs, but then I was demotivated to continue when I thought my typical writings are just too cliche, and it would not be beneficial to the readers (if there's any), hence it would be a waste. Because my aim of writing, apart from expressing my thoughts and feelings, I also aim to produce something that can really benefit others. I write with the aim to inspire other people. I write with the aim to relief those hearts who are in the state of unease. 

Perhaps, I've been aiming too high. 

If I cannot be persistent in this writing journey, and be consistent in producing good writings (doesn't matter if it is cliche or not), how am I supposed to write something that would inspire other people?

Isn't it?

So I guess, the very first step that I should do after this is to try my very best to write something at least, twice a month. I can't be excited to set my target so high as I'm coming back to my baby steps in this writing journey. Hopefully, one day, I would inspire people through the things that I love --- writing. 

Of Marriage Again: It Will Happen At The Right Time

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Her, 
Age: 21
Status: Just Married

Another her,
Age: 22
Status: Married, and a son

Just one more her, 
Age: 22
Status: Married, and a daughter

And I, 
Age: 22
Status: Single

And I was like.. "I'm just 22 by the way" *waving*

Phewww! Looking at all of the wedding invitations, and so far, JUST SO FAR, there are 10 of them, and I probably has miscounted some invitations, so it could be more than 10. Well, I may need not the travel list. If I attended all of these, I could be considered traveling almost half of this country, excluding the Borneo.

So what most newly weds do, or even if they do not, the guests will do? Posting wedding pictures in social media. The pre-wedding and the post-wedding so on so forth will be flocking the news feed, and I will be enjoying looking at those pictures, on one condition: of moderate amount please!

Scrolling through the news feed, I could see the comments made by some of their friends, or relatives, or long-lost friends who happened to be the silent reader all this while, and just start commenting on the picture because she/he could not believe that their also-long-lost-friends have got married, at such young age! Most will congratulate, and wish for their happiness, and some... "Cepatnya kahwin awak. Kita ntah bilalah lagi. Hmmm", or "Bestnya dah kahwin!".

*krik krik krik*

Yeah, the so-called insecurities of not-yet-married, not-yet-get-a-job, not-yet-graduate bla bla bla will always fall on this age of us, or for as long as you had not reach any one of those 'goals'. The worries on what the future beholds for all of us will never be an end. It would always be the scariest thing because of its uncertainty.

And I can only geleng kepala and giggle while reading those kinds of comments.

Oh dear, I do not want to say much. But I will just give you one simple advice: be patient. Fasobrun Jameel. Patience is beauty and patience is the best way of all. Allah has even promised, that there are wonderful things will be granted to those whom with patience.

Hold on dear. Everything will happen at the right time. And your time will come, soon insya Allah.

I've get used to these now. And I'm still cool with it. Hiks.

Confession!

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Confession page.

Aku dah baca beberapa page confession dari macam-macam 'organisasi'. Kesimpulan yang aku dapat buat adalah, betapa ianya mengajar manusia untuk menjadi pengecut dan saling mengaibkan. Tidak mahu menegur berdepan tetapi mahu seantero dunia tahu si fulan dan fulanah telah begini begitu. Walaupun kedua-dua pihak tidak dinamakan, pasti ada segelintir pembaca yang dapat meneka. Andai tidak dapat meneka pun, perkara lebih buruk akan berlaku ------ andaian.

Tidak tahukah engkau tentang padahnya membuat andaian?
Bahawa andaian itu boleh membawa kepada fitnah?

And here is my confession:
I hate confession pages.
It creates the so called keyboard warrior and creates even more barrier between the mankind.

Ladies, Ini Untuk Kita.

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hairan aku dengan, 
The so-called muslimah fashion nowadays.

Hijabista hipster kata mereka.
Segalanya, atas nama cantik.

Pakaian,
Seluar senteng pun cantik.
Baju sendat pun cantik.
Baju pendek pun cantik. 

Tudung,
Lilitan tak kemas pun cantik.
Selendang tak bergosok pun cantik.
Tidak tutup dada, 
Tidak tutup leher,
Tak apa, tetap cantik.

Apabila,
Segalanya, atas nama agama,

Bila ditegur aurat, 
Disuruh biarkan,
Tak apalah tak sempurna,
Sekurang-kurangnya dia ada usaha tutup aurat.

Bila ditegur tabarruj,
Dikata tak apa,
Islam tak melarang umatnya berhias,
Malah Tuhan suka pada yang indah-indah.

Segalanya, ada sahaja hujah yang disediakan untuk membela diri, 
Melepaskan diri daripada rasa bersalah. 

Soalanku padamu wahai Muslimah, 
"Redha siapakah yang engkau cari?"

Maafkan aku, yang juga masih bertatih. Namun isu aurat bukanlah perkara yang harus diremeh-temeh dan bukan perkara yang harus diambil mudah. Perintah tentangnya disebut jelas di dalam Al-Quran tanpa berkias.

Kita tidak boleh menafikan bahawa manusia akan sentiasa 'Judge a book by its cover'. Terimalah, dalam penilaian seseorang, pakaian adalah persepsi pertamanya. Duta agama yang paling obvious dan paling mudah dilihat. Usah dipandang sebelah mata, kerana sesungguhnya, ia penjaga maruah dan pelindung pandangan mata yang liar.

Bukanlah aku minta engkau berjubah mahupun bertudung labuh. Cukuplah sempurnanya apabila ia mengikut syariat. Kemudian, sedikit demi sedikit, kita tambahkanlah labuhannya sebagai lambang kerendahan hati juga ketakwaan kepada Allah swt.

Percayalah, yang luaran itu, mampu untuk mendidik yang dalaman. Perlahan-lahan, tetapi jangan sampai ketinggalan. Aku juga masih berusaha.

Semoga dipermudahkan buat kita semua.

Factor of Analysis

Assalamualaikum wbt

Just like how maturity is not defined by age,
your level of concern is not defined by how much post that you share.

You cannot judge a person through the things that you see virtually.

Who knows,
those silent readers could be the most concerning of all.

Because the initial noble intention for the posts that are shared,
have most probably been corrupted with cunning heart diseases that bring pride to the individual.

Nauzubillahiminzalik.
May we all be protected from the heart diseases that make the good deeds worthless.

Persepsi: Nilai Duit Syiling

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Duit syiling.
Budak kecil ingat duit syiling tak bernilai. Bila dibilang sama-sama jumlahnya, dan kata padanya yang ia boleh ditukar, barulah dia rasa "Banyaknya!".

Persepsi.

Sehingga kita dewasa pun tak bisa dibuang dari dalam diri.
Tak percaya?
Ce tanya, berapa ramai antara kita yang tak mahu terima duit 5 sen bila dihulurkan? Sebolehnya mahu kita tukar kepada satu 10 sen, berbanding dua 5 sen. Sedangkan, ia tetap duit. Tetap ada nilai. Tetap sah dalam urusan jual beli.

Lainlah mesin gedegang. =)

Ujian Tiada Henti Tanda Kasih

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Hidup di dunia ini sarat dengan ujian. Ya, ini tempat ujian. Andai kau lelah, maka jatuhlah dikau. Andai kau kuat, maka dapatlah kau harunginya. Kerana dunia ini tidak kekal, bakal hancur bila tiba masanya. Andai mahukan kehidupan serba sempurna, di syurga sana tempatnya. Perjalanan di dunia ini adalah wadah untuk kau menuju ke akhirat.

Akan tiba suatu masa bilamana kau rasa tidak berdaya dan hanya satu sahaja yang muncul di fikiran, iaitu Allah. Lumrah manusia yang mengingatiNya hanya pada waktu susah, dan lupakanNya pada waktu senang. Kita, manusia hina.

Menjadi baik itu fitrah setiap manusia.

Walau selama ini kita lupakan Allah swt, dalam sedar atau tidak, Sang Pencipta itu ada sentiasa dan bersedia menerima hambaNya tatkala hati merindui untuk kembali. Dan Dia yang membuka pintu hati makhluk ciptaanNya untuk berubah ke arah kehidupan yang lebih baik, yang lebih diredhai, dan dikasihi, akan selitkan bersama satu kekuatan dan ketabahan pada hambaNya agar kita dapat lakukan sebuah pengorbanan bermakna demi satu kebaikan abadi.

Berubah, tidak mudah.

Waktu inilah kebergantungan kita padaNya akan diuji dengan hebat sekali. Waktu inilah iman dan sabar akan tercabar dengan keperitan dan kepedihan. Namun percayalah, saat kau berjaya mengharunginya, kau akan lega. Lega dengan keputusan dibuat. Lega dengan pengakhiran sebuah pengorbanan.

Mudah-mudahan kita hambaNya ini akan sentiasa berada di bawah lembayung rahmatNya.
Moga dirahmati sentiasa dan diberikan hidayah untuk terus berusaha mengejar redha Allah swt.

Sekolah Bukan Penjara, Universiti Bukan Kilang

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'Sekolah Bukan Penjara, Universiti Bukan Kilang'

Sebuah buku hasil pengumpulan artikel yang ditulis di dalam The Malaysian Insider. Buku yang dah agak lama juga habis dibaca. Cuma tak berapa nak tinggalkan kesan yang mendalam. Kalau bukan orang yang peka tentang isu-isu semasa, tiadalah faham akan apa yang ingin disampaikan.

Terlampau banyak pertikaian yang dibangkitkan berkenaan dengan hal-hal yang berlaku di Malaysia, especially pendidikan, which is a very very crucial and significant matter to the people in this country. Dan untuk aku, memang pembacaannya sedikit berat kerana penggunaan bahasa yang agak tinggi dan contoh-contoh yang bila semakin dibaca semakin tidak relevan. Contoh yang bagi aku terlampau jauh dan rumit. Ini serius. Tapi bagi aku, mungkin cara pemikiran aku yang masih belum cukup matang dan of course, tidak setaraf dengan pemikiran penulis.

Walau bagaimanapun, buku ini adalah satu usaha yang cukup baik kerana keberanian penulis dan kesungguhan beliau untuk membuka mata orang ramai akan kekurangan dan kelompongan sistem pendidikan di Malaysia. We hope the education system in our country can be refined and upgraded so that everyone can get the most of benefits in order to build a better society and country in the future.   

The She-Cat and Me

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There is a she-cat in my house. Muka bengis. Kami tak bagi nama padanya sebab dia datang entah daripada mana, with bloated tummy (pregnant), and then one day her tummy exploded (deliver). Maka lahirlah 5 ekor anak kucing yang kesemuanya so far sihat-sihat belaka.

Kesemua anak kucing kami letak dalam sangkar. Kata Saibah sebab takut burung patuk bila dibiar berkeliaran. Bilamasa si kecik ni perlu menyusu, ibunya yang bengis ni kami masukkan dalam sangkar for few moments.

Hari ini aku menjadi agak emosi bila tengok ibunya tak endahkan anak-anak yang dahagakan susu. But that was okay until she bite one of her kitty because she does not want to feed them. Ini buat aku marah. Maka aku terus keluarkan dia dan diikuti dengan pukulan kerana geram. Saibah was there.

"Kenapa Kak Nini pukul dia?!"
"Dia tak nak bagi susu kat anak dia. Tadi dia gigit anak dia!"
"Yelah, tapi janganlah pukul dia"
"Kalau Kak Nini keluarkan anak-anak kucing ni boleh tak?"
"Keluarkanlah kejap."

So I took all of them out from their cage. Let them wander and explore their surroundings. Ibunya ada kat situ. Lalu berdengkot-dengkotlah anak-anak kucing ni jalan menuju ke ibunya untuk menyusu. And you know what had surprised me? Ibunya immediately belai anak-anaknya dan baringkan diri untuk supaya mereka dapat menyusu. Berlawanan dengan apa yang aku baru je lihat tadi.

As I approached the she-cat, I saw one of her nipples bleed. It broke my heart. I could see the reason why she did not want to feed them. And then I look at the cage. Lantai yang berjaring dan berlubang. Probably dia rasa sakit dan tak selesa dengan keadaan dalam sangkar, maka dia tak sedia untuk susukan anak dia. Probably.

You see. Ibu mana tak kasihkan anak. Kadangkala, kasih binatang lagi hebat daripada manusia. I jumped into conclusion too fast when I saw what happened for the first time. One action and I had jumped into the negative thoughts without further investigating.

Well, aku pasti ada sebab Tuhan aturkan apa yang jadi untuk aku lihat dengan cara begini. Aku pasti ada sesuatu yang Dia ingin sampaikan. Aku amat pasti.

Thank you she-cat. You taught me a lesson.
And thank you Allah. You had opened my eyes.

Dear Muslimah, You Are Unique!

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I thought that this is something sweet to be shared with all the muslimah out there.

When you wear the proper hijab, you are indeed making a statement, that you are a Muslim woman, from that very step you have stand out already, you have delivered the message to the people that you embody the rules and regulations of Islam, that you by that very time you stepped out of your house wearing that proper hijab, you tell the people, i am worshipping my God and i do not care if i please your eyes or not, what i care for is if i please my God and protect myself. 

When we are Muslims, we are Islam, we represent our religion so let us be most moderate, most sensitive and most careful whenever we speak about our deen.
We can motivate, uplift and make others understand better our deen if our tongues are are also embodied with hijab. 

And to all my sisters in Islam, i know all of us are struggling in her own ways so let me remind you,
"O Muslimah, you staying firm to your faith, protecting and guarding your modesty (both by dressing and by your tongue) is what makes you beautiful, what makes you stand out and unique.
You being able to shun off the “trends” and  what is in” and keeping the sunnah and all, girl you going High with your ajr, so keep it up, please Thy Creator. I along with the millions of your sisters in the deen,We got your back girl. We got your back.

Sometimes what a sister in the deen really needs is just to be assured that through her struggle someone understands her, that she is not alone in this journey, that when she looks back she doesn’t see her shadow rather she sees millions of people who are supporting her, and that is our duty my dear sisters, so be one of those. 
Who else would guard our backs but our own kind? Let us rebuild the sisterhood, let us rebuild it. 

So sister, I am telling you, i am struggling just like you, but this doesn’t shun me from telling you that I love you for the sake of Allaah and I am with you, and as long as i am breathing through the Mercy of Allaah, I am with you, I may not be physically there but know that in my du’as you are there. Please habibti you do not need to follow the trends, you just need to follow your heart, where Allaah lies.

Moderate the watching of these hijab tutorials, keep the modesty, read a book, learn about the life of our Prophet Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wassalaam, the life of the sahabah radiyallahu anhum, learn about the manners of an ilm seeker, there are so much other things to do than getting hooked up into these tutorials. I’m not saying stop it but recommending you to moderate it, in sha Allaah.

 -Zohayma

Source:
Stories of the sahabah: Award for My Sisters

Keep Silent

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Sometimes it is good for you to speak up of what's wandering in your mind.
Share them and let people hear the other side's story.
But sometimes, it is best to just shut your mouth up and keep yourself silent.
The more words you spilled, the more truth will be revealed.
Beware of your words.


  

Beauty Inside Out

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Recently, I was scrolling down the Facebook newsfeed, and I came through some suggested pages on facial whitening products. These days, whitening products has emerged largely in the cosmetic industry at a very rapid time span. To be honest, yes, I did opened the pages to see what are they offering and the testimonies from their customers (just to check on how their products work).

The results: It was the opposite of what I've searched through Google, compared to the one that was shown in the pages. Of course they won't show the negative one on their pages, but try to search it on the internet through other mediums which does not belong to the owner, you will find some feedback on the negative side effects that have been experienced.

To be honest again, yes, I was one of those people whom have been influenced with all these positive feedback. And by seeing the flawless pictures (of before and after) that they've posted, it increases my eagerness to buy them. The results amazed me! The only thing is that, I haven't got the chance to own them til now. Oh well, as a student, money is a very big issue okee! Those things aren't cheap! However, I am really grateful for not doing so.

With the large emergence of these type of products, it was like a beauty campaign with having fair skin as the main objective. Everyone was sooo into it that they would be willing to spend lots of money to buy the products. I was wondering what are they trying to promote to the society? That beauty only belongs to those with fair and flawless skin? That beauty is to be seen only from the outer perspective?

I was, too, used to prone to these beauty products which promises you the fair and flawless skin that everyone was dreaming to have. I've even tried them a few times, and it didn't work. Some cause me to feel some sorts of burning sensation on my skin. Of course some may guarantee a very rapid changes after using the products, but they will have the chemical after-effects when we starts to get older. And because I'm a person who are soooo afraid of these long-term side effects that I don't even favour to consume medicine, so I stopped.

I'm not saying it's not right. I was just making a conclusion of what I've seen. It's like being perfectly pretty is the ultimate purpose. Well of course, everybody wants to become pretty. Who doesn't? But the society now is seen to become more and more obsessed with outer beauty. People, what's the big deal about it?!

Urgh. I'd better stop now because it makes me feel a bit of emotional. In a way, I felt so stupid for letting my desire of having perfect skin conquered me. When I look at other people who is happy with whatever they were given, it makes me realise that perfection does not come in a perfect form. It is subjective. Most of the times, the imperfection is the key towards perfection.

Dark skin or fair, flawless or with pimples, with scars or without, we should always be grateful and appreciate whatever that we have. For all of these are not ours, and will soon fade away. Do not be obsessed by beauty as it is a subjective matter. Don't be so serious about it for there are many other important things to be given extra care. What matter is our health. As long as we're happy with ourselves, then that's fine. That's all we need.

We need to appreciate ourselves first, and then the confident in us will boost up. True love is not judged through the outer beauty. It's the personality from inside that will reflect who we are in the outside.

I've taken my lessons. Chill lah! =)


 

Legally Unfair

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Akhir-akhir ni blog dah dipenuhi dengan segala macam karya agung orang yang kecewa mencari cinta. Oh, kau! Lemah sungguh!

Okee, ini last. Betul aku cakap.
Erm, insya Allah. Hehe.

"Tak ada peraturan dalam dunia ni kalau kita suka pada seseorang, seseorang tu kena suka pada kita balik."

Aku tengah belek-belek Tumblrlah kemudian aku jumpa ayat di atas ni. Adakah anda setuju atau tidak? Raise your hand and voice out your opinion. Eh no. Don't have to. Keep it in your heart, or your mind, or your diary, or your Facebook, or your Twitter, or your blog, or your Tumblr.

You know. There's never a guarantee that you will get anything that you want. Never. And when we talk about love, it's true that when you love someone, you're not necessarily going to be loved back by that same person. Bear with this fact.

However, as a Muslim, we have our way to interpret this 'unfairness' that always happens in our life.

Kembali kepada Islam. Kita ada cara kita untuk tolerate dengan ketidakadilan yang engkau rasa. Allah tak biarkan sesuatu perkara itu berlaku dengan sia-sia. 

".....It may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know." 

Surah Al-Baqarah,verse 216

Dan bila bercakap tentang soal cinta ni, engkau perlu rujuk surah An-Nur, ayat 26. Allah kata yang baik untuk yang baik, dan sebaliknya. Tengoklah pada diri sendiri apa yang tidak kena. Apa yang kurang. Yakin pada janji Allah yang itu, dan perbaiki diri engkau dahulu.

Arasso?
hehe.

Rileksla. Ini bukanlah tujuan utama hidup. Ada banyak lagi perkara yang perlu diutamakan. Sampai masa, it will happen.

"Kata mereka jodoh itu hadiah, hadiah kenalah surprise!"

 

When Blue Bird Stopped Tweeting

Assalamualaikum wbt

" Nini, lama dah tak nampak kau kat twitter"

" Dah lama dah delete"

" Eh, kenapa?"

" Tak bolehlaaaa. Bahaya"

It was quite a long time since I've deleted my twitter account. And then people kept asking me why. I was like "What's the big deal?"

" Ala sayang Nini dah delete twitter, kalau tak, dah boleh join conversation"

-.-'

People. Stop it.

I deleted my account because it had caused me too much procrastination. Instead of doing my piles of works on time, I delayed them and kept saying to myself that I still have the time! Until the moment I realized that I've spent HOURS tweeting and scrolling the timeline, then only I said to myself "Nini, STOP TWEETING! Go and get your work done. Dah tak banyak masa dah nih!" kat rumah ke, kat kolej ke, sama je. WORST bila aku start 'berburung-biru' dalam lecture hall. Langsung tak boleh fokus dah. Maka 1-2 jam berlalu dengan sia-sia.

And and and... another thing was, I tend to express almost everything on the twitter. Why? because I can tweet as much as I want without people bothering, and I know people will not be ought to comment on the statements made. They scrolled, saw my tweet, read it, and ignored it later. Paling-paling pun akan ada question mark dalam kepala mereka yang membacanya, macam " Why eh?".

"Tapi kalau delete twitter, kau boleh je cenderung luah kat Facebook banyak mana pun kau nak"

Alah, tipulah. Orang akan naik annoyed punya. Kalau dah ada depan depan, dah lama dah kena baling kasut. At least kat Facebook aku boleh lagi lah nak control. Nanti kang bila aku buat mesti ada yang komen " This is not twitter".

BURN! T.T

And and and... one last thing. Aku akan cenderung untuk salah faham dan fikir yang bukan-bukan bilamana aku nampak statement-statement yang mencurigakan. Statements (or tweets I supposed) that will trigger a little spark in my heart, straight to my mind, and cause me to start thinking of why, why and why. Overthinking will take over and ruins you. It ruined me. Hmmm hmmm hmmm.

Somehow, I turned them into my pieces of 'literature artworks' just to comfort myself that I've not yet gone too far. I don't always express what I feel directly. It will be in a language that only certain people could really understand. Kalau tidak memahami pun, they will understand them in their own pattern of interpretation. Lain orang, lain situasinya kan.

With Facebook, blog and Tumblr accounts, I thought, that's enough. Apa gunanya kau jadi seorang hamba kepada Tuhan jika bukan pada Dia kau luahkan segalanya?

I don't banned all these stuffs because I have them too. Lagipun, satu je pun akaun sosial yang aku delete. It's a good channel for you to express thoughts or whatever lies beneath your heart when you're dying to tell somebody about something but you don't want to because you are so 'shy-shy cat'. It's just that you need to know how to limit yourself and be careful with what you're posting because not all people will interpret and understand them in your way. They could misjudge the whole thing and tak pasal-pasal ada yang bermasam muka tanpa sebab yang munasabah.

Some people can control themselves very well.
I can't.




Fact: Ehem, walau bagaimanapun, kerja stalking Tikah dan Aiman Paku aku tetap jalankan dengan ketiadaan akaun burung biru kerana di stu, ada sesuatu yang lebih mudah untuk aku selami dan fahami tanpa mereka perlu memberitahu aku. They know about this. Haha

Di Sebalik Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum wbt

24 Ramadhan 1434H
Ini apa yang ku perhati sepanjang Ramadhan.

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Setiap kali dalam perjalanan ke Masjid Sultan Sulaiman Klang mahupun pulang daripadanya, hampir setiap kali itulah aku akan ternampak seorang lelaki tua ini. Kadang-kadang, jika tak ke masjid pun, andai aku melalui jalan itu, aku tetap akan selalu terserempak dengannya. Pagi, petang mahupun malam. Ada waktu aku lihat dia sedang dalam perjalanan menuju ke masjid, ada waktu aku lihat dia baru pulang daripada masjid.

Dia mungkin hanya seorang warga emas biasa. Seperti orang lain juga, gigih mengerjakan ibadah. Apatah lagi di usianya yang tampak sudah lanjut, ajal akan tiba tidak mengira masa. Namun apa yang buat aku lihatnya dengan pandangan yang berbeza, kerana dia bergerak dengan hanya kerusi rodanya.

Aku andaikan kakinya tidak lagi kuat. Mungkin cedera. Mungkin juga sudah lumpuh. Namun dia tidak langsung mengharap bantuan orang lain untuk dia bergerak ke sana ke sini sedangkan dia boleh sahaja meminta bantuan sesiapa untuk tumpangkan dia. Kerajinan dan kegigihan yang terserlah demi mendekatkan diri denganNya biarpun dirinya kurang upaya, membuatkan aku rasa kagum walaupun tidak aku kenal siapakah dia. Moga Allah redha dan berkati usahanya. Moga dia diberi ganjaran pahala daripadaNya dan ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman. Insya Allah.

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Di situasi yang lain, setiap kali usai menunaikan solat tarawih di masjid yang sama, akan ku perhatikan seorang anak kecil ini. Perempuan. Comel sahaja. Genit-genit badannya. Dia tidak pula ikut bermain dengan kanak-kanak yang lain tatkala orang lain sedang beribadah. Sebaliknya dia duduk diam sahaja berdekatan dengan meja yang diletakkan juadah moreh. Bilamana orang selesai sahaja menggunakan cawan yang disediakan, dialah yang akan basuh dan susun semula cawan-cawan tersebut di atas talam.

Aku tanya adik aku:" Siapa dia?"

Jawabnya:" Dia anak kepada orang yang sediakan moreh ni. Baik kan dia?"

Subhanallah! Aku pasti dia telah dididik dengan baik oleh ibu dan bapanya. Tidak ternampak langsung pun wajah yang memberontak. Terpancar ketaatannya pada wajahnya. Ayu dan comel sahaja. Aku kagum kerana kebanyakan kanak-kanak di usianya ini, mungkin sudah mula melawan dan enggan membantu menguruskan kerja ibunya. Insya Allah, kini dan kelak dia adalah anak yang solehah. Moga Allah redhai dia dn berikan ganjaran pahala. Insya Allah.   

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Di sebalik Ramadhan, ada mesej lain yang sedang cuba disampaikan. Kebanyakan waktu, kita terlepas pandang perkara yang baik dan hanya memandang pada perkara yang buruk semata. Kita hanya perlu memberi lebih tumpuan pada perkara yang berlaku di sekeliling kita walau sekecil mana pun ia. Perhatikanlah dengan teliti dan engkau akan jumpa.