Will Not Always Bloom

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You know you can learn a lot from a withering flower. 

That as much as it appears so graceful and flawless with its colour and its petals, 

it will in the end wilt, decayed as its fall on the humble earth.

And so do human. 

We will not always bloom.

Time passes, and death shall come and retrieve us to be returned to God. 

Last Paper Syndrome

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One more paper. Come on!

Pinterest Inspired. Doodles and sketches since I was so bored. 

I really do not have the mood already as this is the last paper for the final exam. Plus, it's my least favourite subject of the semester, how can anyone expect me to give my all for this? I'm all for Oojengster's Shellout Feast (I'll make post about this hehe), roommate dates and going back home now. That's all in my mind (plus the worry of tomorrow's paper). Sigh

Welcome 2016 with Excitement!

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A very hellooo to the first day of 2016 that is going to end just a few more hours. Hah!

My first day has just been wasted with internet browsing almost the whole day. Gaaahh! I even had my lunch in front of the laptop while watching Youtube videos. A 'fried' Mee Sedap and coffee although I already had one in the morning muahahaha. Coffee has always been a very good companion to me. Always faithful. Hiks. 

Few days before, Instagram has been flooded with people posting their best 9 photos of the year, recapping on their countless and best memories that they had, looking at where they are now and amazed at how much they have gone through in a year despite of the ups and downs.

Basically, it's what everybody is going through. 

Unlike any other years before, I didn't felt so sentimental or the need to write a special post, looking back at the past or how much I've been through before entering the new year. I just thought that everyone is having the same feeling more or less. We will go through the hard and easy part. We will eventually rise up after being defeated in a battle. We will eventually heal ourselves after having a break down. Don't we?

Or perhaps this is a sign of maturity? I'm getting old I know. 

Although this new year is not really celebrated in Islam, we cannot deny the fact that we make every single planning and sum up our life achievement based on Masihi calendar. Now everyone deserves to take that as somewhat a 'border' of the present and the past, and use it to make positive changes with the resolution of getting a better ME. If we are not doing any positive progress for ourselves and the people around us, then it is going to be 'JUST ANOTHER YEAR'.   

As for me, I'm very much excited to walk through each day of 366 days in 2016. It's a leap year everybody! So much big things are going to happen this year insya Allah. Graduation, convocation, my first official job and I'm expecting many others. Pheww so nervous! 

So bismillah, may Allah ease and bless our journey, no matter where and when. 

Amiinn.  

I'm Not A Muslim, But...

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After the Paris attack that occurred recently, Western medias have make it such a huge headline in the newsfeed, causing so much stereotypes to the Muslims entirely without knowing the fact that the so called ISIS are not even Muslims. Even if they are, they are not true Muslims. Seriously, which religion taught a human to do such cruel act to the innocents?

I was browsing on Youtube videos recently, and I stumbled upon this video. "I'm Not A Muslim, But...". It's a video containing little 'speech' and thoughts by some random people saying so much beautiful things about Muslim. Watching it made me feel a little (actually so much) relieve that not all are badly influenced by the media spinning on the terror attack. We still have lots and lots of wonderful people that believe that true Muslims would not do such indecent and horrible act, and that Islam means peace =)

Bahagia

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Petang ini terasa untung dan bahagia. 

Terima kasih buat rakan,

Yang sanggup bersusah bawa kudapan ke kelas sebagai hadiah, 

Juga buat rakan, 

Yang sanggup datang ke kediaman semata menghantar makanan untuk dijamah. 

Ketahuilah bahawa setiap usaha kalian itu adalah sedekah.

Insya Allah. 

Moga Allah sentiasa rahmati!

MindRant 20

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Kitchen: DONE!

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"Alhamdulillah, tamat sudah event terakhir, bermakna tamatlah sudah segala amali in the kitchen. No more shouts of "MAIN COURSE 10! DESSERT 6!" And "KITCHEN CLOSE!". No more WAR in the kitchen, especially the main course dept. No more argument of which dish to which table when it comes to serving time. No more. Or at least, no more with them, beloved coursemates 😥. Thank you to all that have been with us throughout the 4 years time (almost), hehe. The lecturers, the staffs, Kak Zani, Abg Hadi, Kak Dila, Kak Ira, Kak Ainol, Pn Mala, Chef Reza and others. No worry, we'll meet again insya Allah! Towards a wonderful final year, yeay!"

I posted this in my social media and as I was writing this, a feeling of sadness and happiness are all mixed. I guess the happy part of of it was the fact that we do not need to attend anymore super exhausting kitchen classes and go all crazy to manage events, and the sad part is when we realised, that this is the last day for us to have that feeling of accomplishment after an event is finished. We gonna miss all the craziness and stress and team work, and of course, the best part ---- finishing up the leftover!

Alhamdulillah it is finally over. Alhamdulillah for all the great memories. Just can't believe that we've managed to go through all of these. looking forward for the last semester! 

Angan-angan Dunia

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Bila difikirkan masa hadpan, rasa seriau je. Kadang aku bercita tinggi, kadang aku mahu biasa-biasa sahaja.

Adakala aku rancang penuh teliti masa depan aku, tentang kerjaya, tentang bisnes, dan segalanya tentang masa hadapan. Ada waktu, aku cuma mahu menjadi suri rumah, menjaga keluarga dan juga anak-anak.

Adakala aku impikan perkahwinan yang gah, mewah, di dewan besar yang indah, bersama dayang-dayang, memakai dress yang mewah. Tetapi adakala angan-angan terhenti dan hanya ingin perkahwinan yang biasa, mudah dan ringkas. Berjubah sahaja, tanpa pelamin, tanpa si dayang.

Adakala rasa semangat nak teruskan belajar hingga phd, mahu suara mudah didengari, lantas dakwah mudah disampai. Tapi adakala rasa payah, dan aku rasa mahu berhenti cukup setakat ini.

Haihlaaa dunia.

Mengapa berat sekali aku memikirkanmu?

Appreciation

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Do you have your own diary? To keep things in memory? No matter sad or happy?

13 August, 2015
I took the chance to do solat jemaah just now with Huda. Nobody is at home. Only 2 of us. Alhamdulillah. I don't know why, it feels so good. Habis solat, dan doa, kami remain duduk dan aku tanya pada dia how was school, studies and other stuffs. Aku baru tahu dia salah seorang ketua kumpulan dalam kumpulan kelas dia. Aku baru tahu subjek favourite dia Maths. Aku baru tahu kek favourite dia kek yang buah-buahan. Bersungguh dia cerita tadi. Aku banyak ketinggalan rupanya. 

"Kak Nini garang tak?"
"Garang. Sikit."
"Sikit tu sebab apa?"
"Bila Huda buat salah"
"So kalau tak nak Kak Nini marah?"
"Huda jangan buat salah"

I was reading my previous writings in my diary and stumbled on this. It makes me realised, that I have focused too much on myself all this while. Even after the post above. In fact, all of us are much the same. Being selfish without us realising it. Don't you think?

Let's change! Let us be more concerning, caring, in a good way. In a way that can make others feel appreciated and happy. After all, what's the meaning of life without the presence of the people in our life? And what is the meaning of their presence if they are not appreciated?

Badiuzzaman Said Nursi

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Kebiasaannya bila aku dah tak dapat tumpukan perhatian dalam kelas, buku catatan akan aku buka dan mula menulis.