Bila Cerita Bab Kahwin...

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Beberapa minggu yang lalu, aku dikhabarkan dengan berita bahawa kawan aku, in which dia lebih muda daripada aku, akan mengikat tali pertunangan tahun ini, dan akan bernikah tahun depan.

Respon aku sangat hambar. Tak excited langsung. Aku sekadar ucap tahniah dan lantas memberikan nasihat macam aku sudah berkahwin. Hahaha. Ego? Probably. Mungkin sebab orang lagi muda dari kau dah nak kahwin sedang kau masih sibuk-sibuk kejar study, assignments and macam-mcam lagi perkara. Tapi time tu jela. Lepastu aku okay je. Hehe. Aku fikir juga, senangnya family dia nak bagi restu kahwin muda-muda? 

Sebenarnya, itu semua kerja Allah. Aturan daripada Dia. Dah kalau kata jodoh, confirm-confirm Allah akan permudahkan walaupun awalnya nampak macam IMPOSSIBLE. Be it family, money, or whatever it is, He will guide and help you to go through it with ease.

Aku ingat lagi, masuk awal tahun 2014 ni, aku senaraikan salah satu azam aku dalam diari: Wedding Travel.

Dan ia terlaksana.

Maka berjalanlah aku ke sempadan Melaka dan Johor di Muar, ke hujung negeri Selangor di Kuala Kubu Baru, ke Bangi yang dekatnya seperti sebelah UPM sahaja, ke persisiran pantai Port Dickson di Negeri Sembilan dan ke Meru yang hanya 15 minit daripada rumah aku.

Untuk tahun ini, 5 majlis aku dah pergi dan semuanya kawan-kawan aku. Sedaya upaya aku penuhi jemputan mereka semua. Konon-konon nak ambil berkat. Hiks. Bila satu per satu berita begini sampai, lebih-lebih lagi mereka yang berumur sama atau lebih kurang aku, terus rasa 'tua'. Tapi bila pandang diri sendiri sahaja, dan sedar yang aku BARU berusia 21 tahun, aku tahu aku masih sangat muda dan masih banyak perkara perlu dikejar, although aku tahu, bila-bila masa sahaja aku boleh pergi.

Di usia begini, sudah sebatilah berita-berita orang ni dan orang tu mendirikan masjid dan melangkah ke alam seterusnya dalam hidup seorang manusia. Dan aku sentiasa akan terpesona dengan bermacam cerita pertemuan dan cinta mereka. Ada yang lama berkawan, tapi putus, tak lama lepastu terus ada orang datang pinang. Ada yang dirisik, bila tanya pendapat kawan baiknya, rupa-rupanya kawan baiknya suka dia dah lama, dan terus buat keputusan untuk lamar si dia. Maka ditolaklah risikan yang awal tu. Ada yang jumpa waktu kem, dan berputik rasa antara dua bila dapat bekerja dalam satu kumpulan. Ada juga yang bakal suaminya rupa-rupanya kawan sama sekolah rendah dulu. Aih macam-macamla!

Lain-lain cerita masing-masing, yang akhirnya membolehkan aku menyedari bahawa kisah setiap manusia berbeza-beza mengikut aturanNya. They are unique on its own. Ketentuan Allah itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk dan dengan cara-cara yang tiada siapa akan sangka. Your turn will come when it is the time. No worry.

As for me,
Honestly, I am not ready yet. For some reasons.
Tapi aku tahu, kalau dah sampai masanya nanti bila ada rezeki, sedia atau tak, aku kena juga terima dan hadap. For now, marilah kita sama-sama perbaiki diri dan penuhkannya dengan ilmu, sambil menunggu dengan penuh setia. Eh?

Peace!




Patience

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 Pada orang-orang yang sabar akan Allah kurniakan dengan ganjaran yang tidak ternilai.



To Whom It May Concern

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Maaf ku pinta dari jauh.
Apa yang ditulis hanyalah luahan hati yang keberantakan.
Aku mohon agar difahami sepertimana kau mahu aku memahami.

Ikhlas, dari jauh.


The Beauty of Istikharah

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Alhamdulillah, everything has finally ended! So much relieve! Subhanallah, indeed, when we do istikharah, and be patient, Allah will show us the way, and the feeling after doing istikharah is so amazing and beautiful! It's because we have surrender everything to Allah and we let Him decide what's best for us.

For these few days, I kept wondering why Allah gave me this test that had really distracted me. Today, I found out why. Be patient, ask for Allah's help and believe in Him, and He will guide you. He will give you the positive vibes and confidence for you to decide on what's best for your current situation or dilemma.

I have always love this beautiful verse in the Quran:
"He gives wisdom to whom He wills, and whoever has been given wisdom has certainly been given much good. And none will remember except those of understanding." [Surah Al Baqarah, verse 269]

May Allah continue to guide us and shower all of us with His blessings. Amiinn...


Uzlah

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Let's escape the problem for a while and calm yourself down.
Ayuhlah asingkan diri dan beruzlah.
Mari bawa diri dekat dengan Allah.
Barangkali kegelisahan dan keserabutan ini berpunca daripada kelalaian kita dan dosa-dosa kita. 




Fear

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In dilemma, and confused.
Fear has conquered all I guess,
And that fear has refrain me from making the right decision.

I was so afraid that the same thing would happen again.
Because it did not happened once, or twice or thrice,
It had happened more than that.

Pergi dengan tiba-tiba,
Datang juga dengan tiba-tiba.
Bila mahu pergi, kau pergi.
Bila mahu kembali, kau kembali.

Dah serupa tunggul aku ni dibuat.
Bagai tiada nilai dan tiada perasaan.
Hatta patung pun nak tuannya jaga dia dengan baik, inikan pula manusia.
Aku manusia ke patung ni?

Orang yang ada akal takkan sengaja nak jatuhkan diri dalam gaung yang dia pernah terjatuh.
Bukanlah aku orang bijak pandai untuk membuat andaian sebegitu rupa,
Tetapi kalau ia terjadi lagi, sejujurnya, memang akulah orang paling bodoh sekali.




MindRant 9

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It's coming baaaaaccckkkkk!! And it has come baaaaaaccckkkk!!!
Why oh why should this be happening?
No I'm not questioning why Allah arranged it this way.
I am just curious.

Is this supposed to make me feel glad, or worry?
Is this a gift given in a form of an answered prayer,
or this is a test, to see whether my faith will be shaken?

Allah,
help me and protect me from being distracted.
I'm scared.



"You lahir kat Pakistan?!"

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Growing up, I always see myself as someone ordinary. You know, nothing so special to talk about. Not a person whom people can be so eager to know about. Because, well, I am not that friendly person who can easily mingle with anybody that I met (before you know me well). I am not all good with strangers. Sorry!

So for that reason, I always hate meeting new people and hate the ice-breaking session too.

But on the other side, I must say that I am always excited when it comes to the time for me to introduce myself. You may ask me why. I'll tell you now, hehe. It will always start somewhat like this:

"Assalamualaikum wbt, nama saya Zinneerah bt Mohd Mazlan. Asal..... tak pasti nak sebut dari mana, sebab saya lahir di Pakistan dan sekarang tinggal di Klang."

So once I've told them about this, I'll started to get those weird faces and I should always expect the question:

" Macamane boleh lahir kat sana?!"

followed by

"Nombor tengah IC you berapa? Mesti lain gila kan!"

HAHAHAHAH!

Usually, I'll just said, "it's a long story", because it was so complicated for me to understand too. I only tell them what I really know. Not that I've never asked, but I don't know why, I will tend to forget about them later. Basically, that's the tool that I have to get myself into the conversation and make it interesting. At least, I have something to talk about when people ask me more after the ice-breaking session.  

As I was writing this down, I thought that, "Hey! You do have something special about yourself!". Haaaaa kan?! Not to brag or proud so much, but just something for you to feel a bit different from others la, because everyone have their own uniqueness. It's the matter of whether they realize it or not, and whether they make use of it or not.


Ego

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Air mata.
Bertakung penuh tapi ditahan supaya tak limpah.
Betapa besarnya ego kau wahai manusia hanya kerana tidak mahu dilihat lemah.


Leave The Past

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Let's forget the past shall we?
But not as a whole.
Save a little memory,
For us to learn the lesson.

Let's hope for something new.
And wait and see.
For everything in the future,
Are filled with surprises.