MindRant 9

Assalamualaikum wbt

It's coming baaaaaccckkkkk!! And it has come baaaaaaccckkkk!!!
Why oh why should this be happening?
No I'm not questioning why Allah arranged it this way.
I am just curious.

Is this supposed to make me feel glad, or worry?
Is this a gift given in a form of an answered prayer,
or this is a test, to see whether my faith will be shaken?

Allah,
help me and protect me from being distracted.
I'm scared.