Assalamaualaikum wbt
Express it. Do not hide. Ask when you are curious.
"Salam Kak Millah a.k.a. Kak Dayang. Akak free tak malam ni?"
"Wassalam. Haha. Kenapa Nini?"
"Mau mintak teman. Tergoda dengan roti bom dengan aiskrim"
"Ops! Jom! Pukul berapa?"
And there you go, a date is set! Ohohoho. Unfortunately, roti bom is closed, so I head on another stall to buy Keutiaw Ayam Sup. Perrgghh! Kaw kaw punya! Hot, and spicy, with pieces of roasted chicken, and lots of veggies! And and and, to add in some more joy, there is a cup of ice cream with 2 scoops of choc mint flavour, and 1 scoop of chocolate flavour. Ahhhhh, heaven!
I went to meet K. Dayang with purpose. To share my stories, some thoughts, exchange opinions, and to ask some questions that have been wandering in my mind. By the way, K. Dayang is my usrahmate and have known her close enough before she invited me to join her usrah group. That is why I feel comfortable to ask her and share stories with her. Hee.
Of the past, I must be honest and say that I still cannot forget it. However, I am very grateful thinking that though the past has hurt me so much, I still has the opportunity to have my eyes being opened to the truth. So after realizing the fault that I'd been doing all this while, there is one question that keep playing in my mind.
" Cinta kerana Allah "
(To love for God sake, Lillahitaala)
Oh! Before that. Not to forget! A large cup of Peach Milk Shake accompanied me together. Thank God it is made of evaporated milk, or else I'll be wasting my RM3. Pheww!
So the heart-to-heart conversation started. I asked Kak Dayang what does it actually mean, to love someone for Allah's sake? Does it really prohibit the male from loving the female? How about our classmates, or old schoolmates, or close friends who have been with us through thick and thin? Can we call that as loving for Allah's sake? Even with the opposite gender?
And Kak Dayang answered (somewhat like this)...
To love a person for Allah's sake is to do dakwah and to fight for the religion of Islam together with the love one. Can people who are in love, without any clear and fine preparation of getting married, be together to spread about Islam to others? Can you convince yourself that you can control your feelings for doing it because of Allah, and not because he/she is together with you?
People who have been astray, and were given the light to come back to the right way, will see this clearly that it is uncontrollable. The feeling is uncontrollable. For you soon will realize that you are actually doing it for human's sake. HOWEVER, no one has the right to question the real intention inside a person's heart. Only ALLAH Knows. If it is truly wrong, may Allah show that person the right way.
Loving for the sake of Allah is to build the ukhuwah together to gain His blessings. As for friends, love means to help each other to gain knowledge about Islam, to correct what is wrong, to support the changes towards a better person, a better muslim or muslimah, to do charity in order to help the Muslims who are in need and so on. As for husband and wife, love means to mend two families together, and work on the steps of spreading the dakwah for both of the family members. Perhaps by implementing the religious practice and make it as a routine. It also means to develop a family that will raise up another mujahid/mujahidah in order to help Islam to be stronger and will later carry on the Islamic practice and spread it to others too.
Beautiful isn't it? Struggling for His blessings together with your love one. In a permitted relationship. A blessed one. A peaceful one as you will not feel guilty, because you know that it is on the right track. Insya Allah.
It was a very meaningful conversation with Kak Dayang. A very good advice from her. I appreciate it very much. Oh, and thank you too Kak Dayang for the oats bar.
Wallahuallam
