To my dearest sisters….
Nusaibah, Sumayyah, Hanan Izzati, Huda Sakeenah
I miss all of you actually. I took some time to look at some pictures of all of you girls as I was triggered to do so without any reasons. Agaknya sebab Kak Nini rindu sangat kot dengan korang nih… hee
Anyway, looking at those pictures does not even make me feel better. Lagi buat Kak Nini rasa sayu adalah…. Sayu tengok adik-adik Kak Nini semua dah besar-besar, dah pandai bergaya. Sebah dengan Maya dah remaja. Muka pun dah matang. Tahun ni bakal mengahadapi peperiksaan PMR dan SPM. It broke my heart actually because I was not able to see all of you growing up in front of me. I spent 5 years at the boarding school and Kak Nini sedar yang Kak Nini banyak ketinggalan pasal korang.
Tau- tau je Huda dah lahir. Kejap lagi balik tengok, eh2, Huda dah pandai merangkak, berjalan. Nanti balik lagi sekali tengok, Hanan dah pandai mengeja. Hanan dah pandai itu, dah pandai ini. And as for you girls yang dah remaja ni, Sebah and Maya, tau2 balik je, korang dah ada ‘skandal’ masing2.Ehem2.. Lepas tu macam-macam la masalah remaja yang korang ceritakan. Gaduh dengan ini, suka itu, suka ini… macam-macam lagila. You see, I am not there to really see the whole events. To really be beside all of you and be the first one to know about what had happened. Selalu mesti dah lambat. And this year, it happens again, Kak Nini dekat UPM sekarang. Tau2 Maya dah pandai buat kek itu, kek ini, pai la apa semua. And I was not there…..
But this is life. The reality that all of us need to accept. The fact that we each have our own way to lead our life. The fact that all of us are growing up and the time passes very fast. Soon, Saibah will be following me. Leaving Maya, Hanan and Huda at home with Ummi and Abi. And soon, all of you will feel the exact same feeling that I have right now….
“Air dicincang takkan putus”. Insya Allah, whatever happens, I will always pray that we will always be strong in facing those challenges and obstacles of life. Together….. I am not a perfect sister. Not even a good one. But I have always struggle to show a good example for you girls to follow. Just to show that… if I can do it, then so do you! Kak Nini sentiasa doakan agar silaturrahim ni sentiasa kukuh dan berkekalan, dan Kak Nini akan selalu doakan kejayaan adik-adik kesayangan Kak Nini dunia dan akhirat. Seorang wanita, anak, ibu dan isteri yang solehah kelak. Amiin…
Lots of love,
Kak Nini <3
