Dihimpit!

Assalamualaikum wbt

Batuk yang menyakitkan dada. Tekak sentiasa terasa perit. Selsema yang menyumbatkan hidung. -.-

Ini sungguh ujian buat aku.
Kelmarin, kepala dah terasa pening dan berat. Tekak dah rasa perit. Tapi gagahkan diri juga untuk teruskan membaca, sebab rasa syok sangat baca novel Mustafa Kamal Ataturk, karya Abdul Latip Talib. This was borrowed from a friend of mine quite few months ago, hehee. Maaf! Maaf! Nanti buka sem  baru aku pulangkan balik :)

Okee, continue!
Tak lama lepas baca buku tu, mata tiba2 terasa mengantuk. Dan akhirnya aku akur jugalah, katil dah memanggil. sobs sobs :(

Keesokannya, aku bangun dengan badan yang lemah dan kepala yang makin terasa berat.
Tapi bertahan juga untuk siapkan kerja rumah. Yela, nanti siapa pula nak buat kan?
So I thought, tahanlah sikit lagi, and then take a rest.
Oh Ya Allah, bayangkan menyidai kain di bawah panas terik. Memang cuaca haritu menguji kesabaran betul!
Andai kata aku tak tahan, aku dah lama pengsan. Serius cakap!

Abi pernah tegur aku sebab terlalu tunjukkan rasa sakit aku.
Padahal waktu tu aku demam, camane nak sorok?! Haih. Tapi terpaksa akur.
He said that when I was in my high school year. Can't remember which year but it was quite long time ago.
TAPI
Disebabkan aku tahan sakit, dan bajet 'gagah' tula yang akhirnya satu hari aku pengsan kat KTM Serdang.

"Tulah! Dah tau sakit buatla cara orang sakit!"

Mungkin inilah yang kawan-kawan aku akan cakap direct to my face if diorang tak sabar dengan aku haritu.
Dah begitu pulak kan..... Haih haih haih.

Balik kepada cerita yang asal, ye, akhirnya lepas Huda dah ke sekolah aku rasa sangat lega. REHAT TIME!
Tapi waktu tu, badan dah mula rasa sejuk. Aku tak tanggal stokin dan handsock yang aku tengah pakai waktu tu sebab sangat sangat sejuk!

Petang tu, badan dah mula lemah walau boleh lagi gelak-gelak borak-borak dengan family time minum petang. Kepala makin berat. Aku orang yang anti-panadol sebab aku berpegang kepada satu kenyataan yang panadol akan bagi effect kimia yang teruk pada badan bila dah tua nanti, walaupun ummi selalu bekalkan panadol, suruh makan bila sakit.
Selalu kalau nak kebah, aku minum milo. Memang half hour lepastu, badan berpeluh, so suhu badan turun.
Tapi haritu tak terasa nak minum milo langsung. Minum jela air kosong.

Kepala makin kusut, makin sakit bila kucing buat onar kat atas cadar kesayangan!
What surprised me is that, I didn't mengamuk like what I usually did.
Sebab sakit kepala ke??
Serius!
Aku mengomel jugak, tapi dengan rela hatinya dan pelan-pelan aku basuh cadar, buang yang mana tak patut, dan terus 'bersiram' bersiap terus untuk maghrib.

Lepas mandi je, kepala makin terasa berat. Rasa macam kena himpiiiiiitttttt kuat-kuat!!
Seumur hidup tak pernah rasa sakit kepala yang teruk macamni!
Badan pun dah rasa sangat sejuk, lenguh-lenguh, and I started to feel the pains on my muscles.
Right after solat maghrib, aku terus cari panadol. Ambillah dua biji, minum dengan air ribena. TERPAKSA WALAU TAK SUKA!
Lepastu aku terus pakai stokin, pakai baju sejuk, selubung diri dengan selimut dan tidur, dengan harapan bila aku bangun, semua sakit akan hilang. Tapi malanganya, tak lena pun.
Half hour later, demam dah start kebah. Peluh dah mula keluar. Sakit kepala dah kurang.
Aku tanggalkan baju sejuk dan stokin, letak minyak kapak, dan sambung tidur sebab masih rasa lemah.

Pukul 4 pagi aku terjaga tapi rasa tak terdaya, jadi aku sambung tidur dan terjaga semula pada pukul 5. Kali ni kena kuatkan diri juga sebab Solat Isyak tak tertunai lagi. Astaghfirullah...

Aku bangun subuh kemudiannya dalam keadaan yang lebih baik dari hari semalam. Cuma batuk dan selsema makin teruk. Kebetulan ummi ambil MC sebab Hanan pun demam panas, jadi dapatlah ummi buatkan bubur dengan broccoli, ikan bilis, dan terung tumis.
Itu breakfast aku. Kenyang! Best betul ummi! Hehe
After breakfast, aku telan lagi 2 biji panadol, dan rehatkan diri sebentar.
Peluh dah mula keluar setengah jam kemudian, sakit kepala kali ni dah completely hilang.
Syukur ya Allah! Alhamdulillah! :D

Sungguh, sakit itu ujian pada diri.
Sakit juga penghapus dosa.
Sakit juga mengingatkan manusia untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat sihat.
Setiap yang terjadi ada hikmahnya.
Hayati dan ambil iktibar.

Apa-apa pun, aku bersyukur kepala dah tak rasa sakit! Seronok bila dapat rasa sihat. Buat kerja seperti biasa. Sekarang cuma kena bertahan dengan batuk dan selsema. Harap cepatlah sembuh :(






Poem by Lang Leav

ALL OR NOTHING

If you love me
          for what you see,
          only your eyes would be
          in love with me.

If you love me
          for what you've heard,
          then you would love
          for my words.

If you love
          my heart and mind,
          then you will love me,
          for all that I'm.

If you don't love
          my every flaw,
          then you mustn't love me - 
          not at all.

-Lang Leav

Now, I'm here


This was taken when we were in foundation, a visit to Faculty of Food Science and Technology during the Agriculture practical class.

 
Macam gambar zaman sekolah 90-an . Luls XP
This was in the 2nd semester of the foundation in UPM in the year of 2011.
Now, in 2012, I'm here again, not to pay a visit, but as a degree student of this faculty. Things change so much eyt. Now I spent most of my time here.

Blouses, Scarves, Shoes and..... Books!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Mengambil beberapa langkah ke belakang, tak ingat tahun bila, tapi ini yang kawanku pernah beritahu :

" Cuba awak baca je sekali Zinneerah. Nanti lama-lama awak dah baca, awak rasa nak baca lagi. Lama-lama nanti awak boleh minat baca buku."

Haah. Lina. Lina Rahimi. Kawan zaman sekolah.
Back then, I hate books as much as I hate Chemistry and Physics. I mean, fictions and story books yang tebal menggunung, HAHA. Tapi, itu dululah. Now no more.
Now, I can say that I love books.... as much as I love blouses, tunics, pashminas, scarves, shoes and handbags? Hehee :)

Sejak naik tingkatan 4, Abi sedaya upaya paksa anaknya ni untuk baca buku-buku ilmiah. Setiap kali sebelum balik asrama, Abi akan bagi satu buku lama yang dia ada, pesan suruh baca dan buat nota!

"Nanti balik rumah Abi nak tengok"

Waktu tu, ini yang Nini rasa: -________________________________-

And yes, I did do what he asked me to do. Biasanya, tak habis baca pun, but there will be 'new' books for me to read. However, Abi's efforts were worth it and his aim to make me a book-lover was : SUCCESSFUL! :D

"Bacalah!"

Itulah yang diperintahkan oleh Allah. Menuntut ilmu tanpa jemu, dan salah satu caranya adalah dengan membaca. Ayat famous sekolah rendah : " Membaca itu jambatan ilmu". You'll never know how a book or more can change a person. Compare a person who reads with the one who doesn't, you'll see the difference. Kita yang ada akal ni pandailah pilih buku apa yang bagus untuk dibaca. Tak kisahlah baca dari buku ke, dari internet ke, dari suratkhabar ke, as lons as it will benefits you. And when I say BENEFITS, it means something good, something worth it, something that might change you or the people around you or EVERYONE! Restrict yourself from reading unnecessary books and you know what I mean!



Break The Silence, With Love

Silencio - Nelly Furtado ft Josh Groban


An addiction. Now.

Mawar lagi!



Mawar itu...
Jangan biar pudar warnanya.


Girls Talk : Marriage

Assalamualaikum wbt...

It's girls talk. Or ladies, I supposed, hee. I know. Because boys don't really talk about all these stuffs : MARRIAGE.

To have a perfect marriage is every girls' dream. Everybody's dream. Doesn't matter how each person would describe that 'perfect' marriage. 


At the age of 19, talking about marriage is a typical thing. It doesn't sounds awkward anymore. It doesn't even seem rare. Everyone wants it, and so they talk about it. Don't you think?


I watched wedding videos on youtube.
I felt 'awwwww...sweet' when the groom successfully pronounce :" Aku terima nikahnya........ tunai!" and the bride's tears of joy rolling down her cheek.
I read all those books, articles and words regarding early marriage, life after marriage,and so on.
I went to ceramah regarding love and all those relating stuffs.
I even have friends who are already married, and have their own child, and seeing the happy face when they are around with their husband and kids, really, really, really, make me envy!

All of these marriage stuffs going around, somehow had really influenced me, or a simpler word : PSYCHO! Seriously!

There's one old man said this to me ( and my friends at that time) :
"Jangan kahwin dulu ye!Belajar bagi habis dulu, kerja bagus-bagus, cari duit, tolong mak bapak dulu, baru kahwin."

Hah! Felt like somebody had just slapped me right on my face at that time.

Back to the reality.

Marriage. Talking about it was sooooo easy. But life after it? We can never predict. One thing for sure, it is not easy as we thought.


Well, we all want one, don't we?

But I always calm myself down and say: " Be patient, the time will come. Insya Allah."
Ummi has always remind me too.
So, let's just be positive. With yourself, with the fate, with Allah.
We have the power of du'a. Use it!
Insecurity and curiosity will be there, and it's hard to get rid them of them.
Just smile and do not worry a thing. 
If it's meant to be, it will be. 




Extraordinary Ventures!

Assalamualaikum wbt

I'm in the middle of mid semester break and is looking forward for a met-up with Marina together with our siblings. "Sisters day out" perhaps? Hahah

Right after this one week short holiday, it is already the 10th week of the semester. And so then, I'll have only 4 weeks left before the final exam. Since the final exam is around the corner, as usual, students are loaded with lots and lots of assignments, no to forget, presentations all to be done within that 4 week time. Blerrgghh. -______________-

Anyway, last Wednesday marked the end of our Food Preparation Practical Class, or in simpler words that we always use ------- " Lab Kitchen". Well, we were supposed to have another class after the holiday before we ended it, but our lecturer decided to merge the last two classes into one. So right after this holiday is our 'hands-on' final exam where we will need to prepare dishes to be served to the guests, right from the Appetizer, Soup, Main Course, until Dessert.

Time flies so fast, we have finally reached the final class and yes, it sadden us a bit. Of all the classes, this is one of my favourite because we got the chance to cook and bring back all the dishes that we have prepared. MAKAN! Who doesn't love to eat? Heeee... but of course, you got to face the bitterness before you got to taste the sweetness. Reward after hardships. Cooking is so far....... EXHAUSTING. Seriously. It is fun, but very tiring. The class started around 9.15 am and usually ended about 6 hours later. But our last class took almost 9 hours before it ended and we reached our college at almost 6.30 pm, or more!!

From being a noob about cooking, and now... emm.. I'm not gonna say expert,hahah, but much better than the beginning of the semester. Besides the cooking techniques, we also had learnt some culinary terms in which most of it are originated from French words. Mise-en-place, batonnet cut, julienne, al dente, blanch, sautee and many more. :D

9 classes all together and this is the results :








Seeing all of the pictures above and I can't believe that we made all of it by ourselves. Heheh

But the best thing yet, the coursemates, especially my group members.
I don't regret taking this course. I learn a lot. If any circumstances come along the road of my journey here, I'll face it with strong heart. Insya Allah.
Alhamdulillah for all of these :)



Khilaf


Maaf, Maaf.
Itu khilaf saya.
Sesuatu yang saya sudah terlepas pandang.
Mengambil pandangan secara bulat.
Tanpa menyelidik dengan lebih mendalam.

Ampuni aku Ya Allah
Ampuni aku Ya Allah
Ampuni aku Ya Allah

Hectic Life. Urrgghh!

Assalamualaikum wbt

Bersyukur berada di rumah, tapi nampaknya hajat tak kesampaian dengan sepenuhnya. Balik rumah sebenarnya nak rehat secukup-cukupnya sebab kehidupan selama lebih sebulan dekat UPM sangat sangat sangat penat! Tidur tak cukup, tergesa-gesa siapkan kerja, dengan aktiviti-aktiviti sampingan yang lain, ini betul-betul menguji fizikal, and mental too! If waktu asasi dulu boleh nak keluar berjalan sana-sini, masuk degree tak ada peluang langsung. Ada pun sekali dua je Nini curi-curi masa nak jumpa kawan, nak stay away sekejap dari hectic life. Urrgghh!

So looks like life at home is almost the same like in college. Works are as usual. I still got tons of things lining up, waiting for me to get it done in a very short time. Most of it are to be submitted by this week. Harap dapatlah nak siapkan semuanya. So here we go, some of the things that need to be done :

- Business Plan MGM 3180
- Laporan meeting kelab
- Surat permohonan berniaga ( to be submitted to Prof Mahiran)
- Pembentangan menu jualan Karnival Keusahawanan BAKSIS
- Question and Answers ( Lab Microb )
- Lab Kitchen report
- Slides presentation (TITAS)
- Laporan Survey BAKSIS


These are to be done by this week or next week, or else, DIE!
emm,ada lagi ke? Okee, wallahuallam kalau tiba-tiba lecturer nak tambah benda lain pulak.

Anyway, sangat rindu zaman asasi. Tak sesibuk macamni pun. Kalau pun 'sibuk', itu semua sebab kerja yang tertangguh,eheh! Tapi sekarang nak menangguh, memang habislah. memang tak tidur la kalau macamtu. Walau apa pun, Nini kena terima hakikat, zaman asasi dah berlalu. Cabar diri! Ini kehidupan yang baru. Haih, kalau tahu begini susahnya, dari dulu lagi dah tukar mindset, sebab dulu beriya excited nak masuk universiti. Best sangat la kononnya.

Nevermind Nini...

Stay strong. Struggle. 加油!
Letak pengharapan dan minta bantuan sepenuhnya pada Allah, insya Allah dipermudahkan nanti :)
GO NINI GO!