Cemburu Buta

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Cemburu buta tu bukan sebab tak pakai spek.
Kalau tak pakai spek, tu cemburu rabun.

Cemburu ni memang tak nampak apa-apa.
Tiada mata katanya.
Atau ada mata, tapi ditampakkan dengan segala yang tak kena.
Berdarah mengalir dari mata bagai ditusuk dengan sesuatu yang tajam.
Tiada lagi berfungsi
Kerana mata hati yang sepatutnya menunjukkan kebenaran pun dipengaruhi.
Tulah yang jadi cemburu buta.




To Love or Not To

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If I am to love,
I'll love the person who loves me,
Not the person whom I love.

But if both loves each other,
Luck is on both sides.


In Memory, ATPN

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Pagi-pagi begini, masih dalam usaha yang gigih untuk siapkan lab report yang tertangguh memandangkan aku mengambil keputusan untuk tidur awal semalam -.-'

Asrama Toh Puan Norashikin.

Tiba-tiba teringat.

Lalu di pagi hari ini jugalah aku menjadi stalker terhebat,
Membelek satu per satu untuk ku lihat perkembangan mereka. 

Kini, setelah 3 tahun berlalu, makin kurang khabar cerita didengar.
Tentang mereka yang pernah menemani aku bersama harung cerita 5 tahun.

Aku tiada gambar bersamaku untuk aku lihat kembali.
Banyak gambar aku buang. Namun tidak semua.
Hanya kerana aku tidak mahu melihat diriku yang dulu.
Penuh jahil.

Tidaklah juga maksudku bahawa kini aku umpama malaikat.
Suci sempurna tiada cela.
Tidak.

Cumanya aku ingin melangkah,
ke depan dengan penuh gagah,
dengan penuh tabah,
ke arah Maghfirah.

Cerita dan kenangan lalu biar simpan dalam ingatan ini.
Kelak kita berkumpul semula,
Kita sama-sama kongsi cerita ye.

Jujur ni,
Aku rindu.
Teramat!


Luka Dewasa

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"Dan yang terpenting,
luka akan mendewasakan cinta kita.
Menjadi benar-benar baru,
walau dengan cerita duka masa lalu.
Aku ingin kau setia,
seperti cintaku yang tak pernah sama sekali berubah."
- Tia Setiawati Priatna

Substitute

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Tak ada kopi untuk diminum. Ini pun jadilah. 



Catty

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Ini si kucing yang buat release tension bila serabut. Muehehe

Source


Academically Hectic

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Assignments and programs lining up to be settled, so far, this has been the most hectic week ever! But Alhamdulillah, we managed to get through all of it. Allah eased us in such a way that made me feel blessed. Again, alhamdulillah.

With 3 academic programs to be handled in a week, life became so busy and I knew I couldn't handle them on my own. Even with my assistant, we still can't manage it well. Have to admit that. So this is when we decided to let the two big programs: Malam Anugerah Pengetua and Workshop for Academic Improvement, for the juniors to handle, while we focused on Mentor-mentee program. Alhamdulillah, with the guidance and the teamwork, everything went smoothly. 
 




You see, I'm not proud or amazed with the success of all these programs held. What I was amazed and touched was the spirit and commitment that they gave during the work progress. Despite being 'inexperienced' in the field of event management, they could still manage to get it through. It's their strong will of learning new things that drove them to make the success.

The ultimate aim is not to see the plans went on successfully. That will be another thing to achieve. What we are aiming is the bond, the teamwork, the commitment, the moral values, the friendships, the new knowledge and experiences that they have all portrayed and gained throughout the weeks that they had went through. We've seen that. I've seen that. And I was touched.




Being able to see the happy faces for the success they've gained was one of the most wonderful thing ever. A memorable one. Indeed. Thank you to everyone and not to forget, the former MTM of Academic, that have been helping so much by giving the proper guidance and advices to all of us. We couldn't be doing this without your help.

Crew of Malam Anugerah Pengetua
Crew of Workshop for Academic Improvement
Now that everything is over for this semester, I shall focus on the upcoming big events. Most importantly, the final exam that is just around the corner. Ggaaahhhh!





Guilt

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Terasa tidak senang pula bila baca.

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Sahabat,
Aku harap engkau mengetahui,
Bahawa setiap kali aku tidak dapat bersama,
Rasa bersalah pasti menyelubungi diri.

Aku tahu engkau memahami.
Maaf.



Kita Tidak Kan Selalu Cinta

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Manusia ini, jika bercinta,
Bukanlah sepanjang masa dia kan bercinta.
Ada hari-hari yang teruk perlu dilalui,
Dan kau dipinggir,
Dialah yang akan jadi orang yang paling kau benci.
Ada hari-hari yang gembira,
Dia menjadi yang pertama untuk disampaikan cerita,
Dialah yang akan jadi orang yang paling kau cinta.

Kadang kau celoteh panjang,
Penuh ruang dengan tawa yang riang.
Kadang kau diam membisu,
Sepi ruang tu penuh lesu.

Kasih manusia itu kan bermusim.
Apa harapan tinggi lagi yang perlu kau letak?
Haruskah?

Sebab itu cinta tertinggi itu terletak padaNya.
Kau suka, kau duka. Dia sentiasa ada.
Sedikit pun tidak jauh. Malah makin dekat.

Allahu.



Untukmu Palestin

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Untukmu Palestin (For You Palestine), by Raihan.


I remembered listening to this song during my primary school year. I was not even 10 at that time. And now, I'm already 20. It has been soooooo long but the issue has not yet faded as the condition over there is worsen day by day.

Through the song, we were reminded of the suffer and hardships that the Palestinians need to face. A song dedicated to them as a reminder to continue having the strong faith and patience in waiting  Allah's promise of giving Muslims the victory. A song dedicated for us too so that we will always remember them in our prayers.

Palestine, you'll always be remembered,
In prayers and in other occasions,
Insya Allah. 




Rezeki

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Memang benarlah rezeki Allah bagi dalam pelbagai bentuk.
Tak dapat satu ni,
Mungkin didatangkan rezeki pada perkara lain.
RahsiaNya
Kerana hanya Dia yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik

Insya Allah.


Penghargaan pada Penulisan

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Penulisan pendek,
Penulisan panjang.
Setiap itu punya maknanya dan nilainya.

Seperti juga karya filem,
Baik pendek atau panjang,
Penulisan juga berhak diberikan penghargaan.

Kerna di setiap aksara itu punya mesej yang ingin disampaikan.
Sebuah luahan.
Sebuah pengajaran.

Jangan kau abaikan.


Dear Muslimah, You Are Unique!

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I thought that this is something sweet to be shared with all the muslimah out there.

When you wear the proper hijab, you are indeed making a statement, that you are a Muslim woman, from that very step you have stand out already, you have delivered the message to the people that you embody the rules and regulations of Islam, that you by that very time you stepped out of your house wearing that proper hijab, you tell the people, i am worshipping my God and i do not care if i please your eyes or not, what i care for is if i please my God and protect myself. 

When we are Muslims, we are Islam, we represent our religion so let us be most moderate, most sensitive and most careful whenever we speak about our deen.
We can motivate, uplift and make others understand better our deen if our tongues are are also embodied with hijab. 

And to all my sisters in Islam, i know all of us are struggling in her own ways so let me remind you,
"O Muslimah, you staying firm to your faith, protecting and guarding your modesty (both by dressing and by your tongue) is what makes you beautiful, what makes you stand out and unique.
You being able to shun off the “trends” and  what is in” and keeping the sunnah and all, girl you going High with your ajr, so keep it up, please Thy Creator. I along with the millions of your sisters in the deen,We got your back girl. We got your back.

Sometimes what a sister in the deen really needs is just to be assured that through her struggle someone understands her, that she is not alone in this journey, that when she looks back she doesn’t see her shadow rather she sees millions of people who are supporting her, and that is our duty my dear sisters, so be one of those. 
Who else would guard our backs but our own kind? Let us rebuild the sisterhood, let us rebuild it. 

So sister, I am telling you, i am struggling just like you, but this doesn’t shun me from telling you that I love you for the sake of Allaah and I am with you, and as long as i am breathing through the Mercy of Allaah, I am with you, I may not be physically there but know that in my du’as you are there. Please habibti you do not need to follow the trends, you just need to follow your heart, where Allaah lies.

Moderate the watching of these hijab tutorials, keep the modesty, read a book, learn about the life of our Prophet Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wassalaam, the life of the sahabah radiyallahu anhum, learn about the manners of an ilm seeker, there are so much other things to do than getting hooked up into these tutorials. I’m not saying stop it but recommending you to moderate it, in sha Allaah.

 -Zohayma

Source:
Stories of the sahabah: Award for My Sisters

Sushi Mushi Tushi

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Hujan sepanjang hari di UPM. Dari awal pagi tadi sehinggalah ketika ini, jam 9.59 malam, hujan masih belum berhenti. Sekejap renyai, sekejap lebat. Tenang dan sejuk sahaja harini. Mungkin, Allah nak bagi waktu panjang untuk kita berdoa dan untuk Dia makbulkan. Waktu hujan kan waktu mustajab berdoa. Hujan rahmat Insya Allah =)

Roommate keluar harini dan sebelum dia pergi, aku pesan benda yang aku dah teringiiiiiiiin sangat nak makan. Dah lama dah 'mengidam'. Muehehehe. 


SUSHIIIIIII!!!!!




Ngidamku dah dipenuhi. Thank you Mache sudi tolong belikan. 
Alhamdulillah for this.


Masih lagi hujan.
Allahumma soyyiban nafi'an




Suatu Pagi: Pasar Tani MAEPS

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Pagi hari ini cerah dan indah. Ambil masa hari ini untuk rehatkan diri dari kesibukan dunia sekejap.

Mache balik dari TOCIE terus ajak pergi ke Pasar Tani MAEPS.

"Nak pergi ke tak nak, nak pergi ke tak nak"

Okee, pergilah.

Kayuh basikal.

Penatnya... lebih teruk dari yang aku sangka. Jalan pun tak penat macamni tau. Mahu salahkan basikal ke, atau salah aku badan makin berat? T.T

Agenda utamanya: Cari baju untuk ayah Syu.
Agenda kedua: MAKAN!

Serius cakap penat gila mengayuh, tapi seronok gila balik dengan makanan di tangan. Haha

Kuih Peneram

Tauhu Bakar
Mihun sup

Takoyaki
Tauhu Bakar dengan Kuah Rojak
Sedapnyaaaaaaaa!

You see, what I love about pasar tani is that you will get to see lots and lots of food! Macam-macam ada. Kadang yang kau tak pernah nampak pun boleh jumpa. hihi.
Oh, aku masih menyimpan impian yang sama. FOOD TOUR! Insya Allah, one day =)



Pantulan Semula

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Namanya disebut setelah pemergiannya.
Betapa hebat penangan anak muda ini,
Yang usianya sebaya denganku,
Sehingga telah menghidupkan banyak hati yang telah mati.

Dan aku,

Yang sentiasa dipesan-pesan oleh Abiku,
Supaya berbakti untuk ummah,
Melihat kembali diri ini,
Apa yang telah aku lakukan demi agama ini?
Apa yang telah aku lakukan demi umat ini?

Bukan nama yang ingin dicari,
tetapi redha Ilahi.







Air Mata Berharga

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Apa pun jua,
airmata aku takkan aku biarkan tumpah
depan Ummi,
depan Abi,
depan adik-adik.
depan ahli keluarga aku.

Dan dengan rakan aku pun,
sebolehnya aku tahan.
Aku tak nak mereka lihat.

Ada waktu yang tak tertahan pun,
Aku akan rasa loser.
Sangat sangat loser.
Macam menampakkan diri aku ni tidak kuat.


Tak suka.
Malu.

Sudahlah tak manis bila menangis,
lagi mahu ditayang. Buat apa?

Ego.
Ye, aku mengaku.

Namun,
Hanya satu.
Yang aku akan mengadu dan menangis
Tanpa aku jemu
Tanpa aku lindung

PadaNya
Allah



Dan Rasa Itu Kembali

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Haaaaaaaaaaa, finally dapat juga aku singgah sini nak menulis sekejap! Yeay!

11th week. Dan hari-hariku masih berjalan seperti biasa tiada beza. Sibuk dan sangat sibuk. Azam yang ku semat erat sejak awal semester masih belum dapat aku laksanakan.

Kecewa.
Haih.

Tapi apa pun jua, aku tak pernah mengalah. Never! Even kalau aku rasa aku sudah jatuh, aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk bangun semula. Ada banyak yang aku perlu perbaiki. Sentiasa ada dan takkan pernah berakhir. Kerana aku manusia yang tiada sempurna. Namun, ketidaksempurnaan itulah yang menyempurnakan. Hikhik.

Akhir-akhir ni, makin rinduuuuuu pulak dengan Huda and Hanan. Dari haritu lagi, aku buka voice recording budak-budak nih, dan aku baca balik mesej-mesej yang dihantar, makin bertambahla kan rindunya. Rasa nak balik tu makin membuak!

Dan tadi, aku rindu dan risaukan Abi tiba-tiba. So aku buka dan baca balik mesej-mesej lepas yang Abi hantar. Sebak rasa tiba-tiba. Abi usaha keras nak sara keluarga. Nak cukupkan keperluan anak-anak. Rasa terkilan tau bila kita tahu ahli keluarga kita sedang susah, tapi tiada daya pun nak bantu.

Allahu, rindunya!
Sangat sangat sangat!






Friendship

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"Let's write our name on the sand, and let only the waves wash it away.Turbulence will not be the obstacle of a meaningful friendship."



Trip: The Other Side of Malacca

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The Trip
This is the 2nd trip for the Food Service Management students. We went to Langkawi before, and now, to Malacca. The heart of Malaysia’s history. A town that is well known for its ancient history of Parameswara and Cheng Ho. Not to forget, it is also well known for its traditional Baba Nyonya heritage, which is the infusion of Malay and Chinese culture. The objectives of this 4 days trip are to let us explore the signature food and the culture in Malacca, and to mend a tighter bond between the students through the activities held.

The first day of trip was started with Jonker Walk. It is more likely to the Petaling Street in Kuala Lumpur, where lots of accessories, antics items, souvenirs and hawker food were displayed and sold. We dropped at this place with the main purpose of buying some food to eat since we’ve not eaten for dinner yet. However, it has come to our sense that the Jonker Walk is dominated by the Chinese only when we got there. There are lots and lots of foods sold along the narrow street such as ice cream, coffees, desserts, biscuits, traditional delicacies, cuisines, fried food, dodol, and durian puffs, but since they were all sold by the Chinese people, so we can’t even buy them because we were not sure of its Halal state.










During this whole trip, we stayed at Homestay Villa Sri Pinang. A lovely village located near Pantai Klebang, surrounded by the paddy fields and beautiful scenery. We spent the whole second day at this homestay starting off with ‘jungle trekking’ early in the morning, where we were brought to walk around the village crossing the paddy field and palm oil field.






After that, we were taught by the villagers on how to cook Asam pedas. I thought that Asam pedas was a very typical Malay dish that does not belong to any specific region or state, but I was wrong. Asam pedas is actually a significant dish of Malacca and what makes it different from other types of Asam pedas is the addition of ‘halba’ or fenugreek in English, and also ‘belacan’ or shrimp paste into the ingredients used. This what makes it unique in terms of the flavor. In fact, shrimp paste is actually one of Malacca’s main production in food industry. We also had the chance to make our own Asam pedas and they are judged by Dr Shahrim and Dr Yaya.


The activity in the evening is continued with the donation ceremony to the poor of Kg Sri Pinang. There are about 10 families that have received this donation which is given in terms of items. Although it was just a simple and brief ceremony, but it was a meaningful one when you were able to see the smiles of these poor villagers when they received the donations. It was a big pleasure for all of us to have the honor of helping those who are in need. This is just one of a way for us to make the trip meaningful. We also had fun spending the evening with games and chilling while eating the kuih

 


  



The third day was a full day tour. We started with the visit to the Small Scale Industry of cencaluk and belacan production. What we’ve expected is the complete process of making them. However, it cannot be fulfilled because the production of cencaluk and belacan depends on the availability of the shrimps, specifically udang geragau. The shrimps are available in large scale only in the months of July until October. This is when the shrimps are caught using the specific type of net called ‘pelanggai’. Since we were not able to see the production, they just gave us the explanations on the process of making them and after that, we were brought to the little shops that sells cencaluk, belacan, and various kinds of other local products such as inang-inang, gula Melaka (brown sugar), sago, dried fishes, dried squids, and many more.    

Pelanggai
 






The tour of the day is continued with a tour in Bandar Melaka and the visit to Submarine Museum whereby a real huge submarine is exhibited. The submarine was used to be owned by the France army and it was then given to our country’s royal navies to be used as practice. The internal part of the submarine is opened to the public to walk in and see what does it looks like inside the submarine. We entered the submarine and it was beyond our expectation. The internal parts are very narrow and crowded with engines and machineries. The beds and kitchens are small and have very limited space to move. Indeed, it has opened our eyes and gave us a quick imagination of what it feels like to be stocked inside a submarine in the middle of the ocean.

The next venue is the Macau Gallery. This is a gallery to promote the Macau tourism and it culture. It exhibits and displays everything about Macau and most importantly, its relation with the emergence of Malacca. As soon as we arrived there, there are guiders who brought us to tour every section of the gallery while explaining the history behind Cheng Ho’s shipping and its relation to Macau and Malacca. Like Malacca, Macau is also rich in its unique history on how it was found and developed into a successful tourist attraction.









Our fourth day, the final day, is ended with a beautiful sight-seeing of Desa Paku House and Garden in Lendu, Alor Gajah. It is a beautiful traditional house of Malacca that is situated at the center of an exotic garden with 3-acre wide. Most of the flowers planted are of Helicornia type and are very rare to be seen in normal garden.







Every corner of the house is perfectly designed and decorated with antic ornaments and custom-made batik pillows for the sofas. We’re served with some traditional Malay cuisines as our treat such as ketayap, curry puff, koci and pulut panggang. The most interesting part of the visit to this house is that the owner had actually produced lots of homemade perfumes using the flowers, leaves and herbs that were planted in his garden. We’re very lucky to have the experience of testing all of the perfumes that were made by him. Some have pleasant and sweet smell, but some are just too pungent and could not tolerate with my smelling sensory.    


Reflection
Before I went to Malacca, I have a very cliché expectation of just another historical place that is rich in its tradition and culture. When people talk about Malacca, the Baba Nyonya heritage and A’ Famosa Fortress is the first thing to come out from their mind and that was it. It has become a very mainstream significant to Malacca.

            However, this trip has gone beyond my expectation and changed my perception of Malacca especially the visit to Macau Gallery and Desa Paku House Garden. All this while, we have been taught about the history of Malacca but the only things that we could remember is about Parameswara, the mousedeer and the Melaka tree story. We know about the Portuguese who had once taken over Malacca, created a very big impact to the culture and tradition in here, and caused a mixed culture that lead to the emergence of Eurasian people. But we never had the urge to know in details about what has happened in the past. Who would have thought that Macau was once has given a very big contribution on the history of Malacca that involves Cheng Ho, The Father of Shipping. And who would have thought too that in the mid of hustle bustle of the city, there is a peaceful and eye-pleasing place called Desa Paku that is still well-maintained for the past 30 years! I realized that in this modernize era, there are still people who care about the heritage and culture, and try to make a very big effort to preserve it. This is something that should be given a compliment.

             Apart from the history and culture of Malacca, I realized about the importance of traditional food to the tourism and food service industry. For example the shrimp paste. It may look like an ingredient that is insignificant to the international cuisine, but it is the one that contributes to enhance lots of traditional dishes such as kangkung belacan and of course, Asam pedas. As we are busy and putting a lot of efforts on learning the Western dishes, we should never forget the traditional dishes that we have in this country so that it will not be forgotten and can be commercialized to the whole wide world. As a Food Service Management student, I actually felt responsible to promote more on our traditional cuisine to the world and let it be known internationally for its unique taste and texture. Some modifications could be put in it to merge with commercial industry, but the original is always as its best.

              This trip to Malacca has definitely been an eye-opener for all of us. We were able to explore and gain so much new knowledge and have the chance to spread it to others. It was a wonderful experience especially when it comes to forming a tighter bond between the coursemates and lecturers, and also to have a much meaningful friendship between all of us. The cooperation is obviously seen in order to make this trip a successful one. Everyone has put their best to capture good moments to be reminisced in later times.


            I am looking forward for another wonderful experience in another successful trip. It is always an exploration of food and culture of the other side of the country. Malacca, 1 Nov - 4 Nov 2013
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